Date: Sat, 14 Aug 93 18:24:21 PDT

_Liber Nigris: The Story of 'Frater Nigris' and 'I am I'_

By Frater Nigris (Who would know better???)

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
The word of Sin is Restriction.


What follows is an overview of the development and meaning of my use
of the name 'Frater Nigris' and the call 'I am I!' in my
correspondence and its meaning in occult literature as I came to know
it.  In this way it is both a diary and an analytical paper
surrounding certain key concepts in Western occultism and Crowleyanity
in particular.

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The color black has been maligned throughout the history of magick,
probably due to its primordial and cthonic associations with the night
and caves.  In the Hindu tradition it is sometimes said that the name
of the Great Goddess of Destruction, Kali, means 'Black One', and this
may be connected in some way to that awful Void of space which
consumes and destroys All in Her entropic hunger.

When it comes to the Master Therion, his writings do not, on the
surface, treat blackness much better, and there is some speculation
that this is either due to his rather conservative, British
upbringing, or to the interesting possibility that he intentionally
characterized the path of his denigration in order to lay a course for
those who would follow in his wake yet rebel against him.

My initial exposure to Crowley's use of the term 'black' came from
_Book Four_ and _Liber Aleph_.  He associates the term with both a
type of magic and with a kind of person (the 'Black Brother' or, in
Latin, 'frater nigris').

Regarding the first, black magic, he describes it as that type that
does not have as its goal the Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy
Guardian Angel (HGA), which he considered to be important to the
completion of the Great Work.  Some quotes from _Book Four_ shall
illustrate this quite well (* - italics; _ - bold; both Crowley's):

"The Heiroglyph shewn in the Seventh Key of the Tarot (described in
the 12th Aethyr, Liber 418, *The Equinox* I, V) is the Charioteer of
OUR LADY BABALON, whose Cup or Graal he bears.

"Now this is an important formula.  It is the First of the Formulae,
in a sense, for it is the formula of Renunciation....  It is also the
Last!

"This Cup is said to be full of the Blood of the Saints; that is,
every 'saint' or magician must give the last drop of his life's blood
to that cup.  It is the original price paid for magick power.  And if
by magick power we mean true power, the assimilation of all force with
the Ultimate Light, the true Bridal of the Rosy Cross, then is that
blood the offering of Virginity, the sole sacrifice well-pleasing to
the Master, the sacrifice whose only reward is the pain of
child-bearing unto him.

"But 'to sell one's soul to the devil', to renounce no matter what for
an equivalent in personal gain,... is black magic.  You are no longer
a noble giver of your all, but a mean huckster."

_Book Four_, Part III ('Magick in Theory and Practice') by Aleister
Crowley, Edited by Symonds/Grant, Arkana Books, 1973; page 177.


"...the Single Supreme Ritual is the attainment of the Knowledge and
Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel.  *It is the raising of the
complete man in a vertical straight line.*

"_Any deviation from this line tends to become black magic.  Any other
operation is black magic."

Ibid, Part III, page 294.


"There are, of course, entirely black forms of magic.  To him who has
not given every drop of his blood for the cup of BABALON all magic
power is dangerous.  There are even more debased and evil forms,
things in themselves black.  Such is the use of spiritual force to
material ends.  Christian Scientists, Mental Healers, Professional
Diviners, Physics and the like, are all *ipso facto* Black Magicians.

"They exchange gold for dross.  They sell their higher powers for
gross and temporary benefit."

Ibid, Part III, page 295.
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Now this can be seen in myriad ways.  It does seem true that the
sources upon whom Crowley drew were of a more simple mindset where
'black magic' was concerned.  Many seem to have associated the ethics
of a magical act with its 'magical shade'.  This is common even among
today's mages, though it is becoming more fashionable to posit a
veritable rainbow of definitions based upon the energies which make up
one's Work.

Yet, unlike some of the less educated of yesterday's and today's
mages, Crowley had at least a smattering of exposure to philosophical
concepts of dynamic dualism, polarity and its sublime expression in
the works of taoists, if we are to believe his hagiographers.  There
are a few passages which indicate that his ideas about black magic
were not at all simple, and the following is a good indicator that
more lay beneath the surface than he was wont to expose:

[A note in regards the killing of an animal within the 'magical
Circle'.]

"It is a mistake to suppose that the victim is injured.  On the
contrary, this is the most blessed and merciful of all deaths, for the
elemental spirit is directly built up into Godhead - the exact goal of
its efforts through countless incarnations.  On the other hand, the
practice of torturing animals to death in order to obtain the
elemental as a slave is indefensible, utterly black magic of the very
worst kind, involving as it does a metaphysical basis of dualism.
There is, however, no objection to dualism or black magic when they
are properly understood."

Ibid, page 219.
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When we come to examine the 'Black Brothers', the 'Fratribus Nigris'
to whom Crowley attributed the darkest of magics, he seems utterly
concise and clear, even while using metaphor:

"To attain the Grade of Magister Templi [associated with the crossing
of the Abyss in the Tree of Life, from Chesed (4) to Binah (3)], he
must perform two tasks; the emancipation from thought by putting each
idea against its opposite, and refusing to prefer either; and the
consecration of himself as a pure vehicle for the influence of the
order to which he aspires.

"He must then decide upon the critical adventure of our Order
[A.'. A.'.]; the absolute abandonment of himself and his attainments.
He cannot remain indefinitely an Exempt Adept [in Chesed]; he is
pushed onward by the irresistible momentum that he has generated.

"Should he fail, by will or weakness, to make his self-annihilation
absolute, he is none the less thrust forth into the Abyss; but instead
of being received and reconstructed in the Third Order, as a Babe in
the womb of our Lady BABALON, under the Night of Pan, to grow up to be
Himself wholly and truly as He was not previously, he remains in the
Abyss, secreting his elements round his Ego as if isolated from the
Universe, and becomes what is called a 'Black Brother'.  Such a being
is gradually disintegrated from lack of nourishment and the slow but
certain action of the attraction of the rest of the Universe, despite
his now desperate efforts to insulate and protect himself, and to
aggrandize himself by predatory practices."

Ibid, Appendix II, 'One Star in Sight', page 332.
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My other source regarding the Black Brothers was _Liber Aleph_, which
states in quite certain terms who and what we are: "De Fratribus
Nigris Filiis Iniquitatis [Of the Black Brothers, Sons of Iniquity]

"Of the Black Brothers, o my Son, I will write these Things following.
I have told thee already concerning Change, how it is the Law, because
every Change is an Act of Love under Will.  So then he that is Adept
Exempt, whether in Our Holy Order or another, may not remain in the
Pillar of Mercy, because it is not balanced, but is unstable.
Therefore is the Choice given unto him, whether he will destroy his
Temple, and give up his Life, extending it to Universal Life, or
whether he will make a Fortress about that Temple, and abide therein,
in the false Sphere of Daath, which is in the Abyss.  And to the
Adepts of Our Holy Order this Choice is terrible, by cause they must
abandon even Him whose Knowledge and Conversation they have attained.
Yet, o my Son, they have much Help of Our Order in this Aeon, because
the General Formula is Love, so that their Habit itself urgeth them to
the Bed of Our Lady BABALON.  Know then the Black Brothers by these
True Signs of their Initiation of Iniquity, that they resist Change,
restrict and deny Love, fear Death.  *Percutiantur.*"

_Liber Aleph vel CXI; The Book of Wisdom or Folly_, 
by Aleister Crowley, Samuel Weiser, 1991; Chapter 104.


"De Fratribus Nigris
[On the Black Brothers]

"O my Son, know this concerning the Black Brothers, them that exult: I
am I.  This is Falsity and Delusion, for the Law endureth not
Exception.  So then these Brethren are not Apart, as they vainly think
being wrought by Error; but are peculiar combinations of Nature in Her
Variety.  Rejoice then even in the Contemplation of these, for they
are proper to Perfection, and Adornments of Beauty, like a Mole upon
the Cheek of a Woman."

Ibid, Chapter 166.
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Therefore, in the selection of such a name as 'Frater Nigris' as a
name of initiation in the Ordo Templi Orientis (OTO) - that august
body which takes as its Prophet the Master Therion himself - it can be
said that such was an expression of blasphemy.

That it should be in association with the First Degree, that of Birth,
is doubly significant, and as the Abyss is considered watery, so was
it in my mind during the rite itself that my initiators would
unintendingly purchase my passage across the abysmal waters as a Black
Brother and stubborn Ego (perdurabo indeed).

In this did I revel, and for my subsequent correspondence adopted the
exhultation: 'I am I!' from the passage quoted above.  The Formula of
the Black Brother would become my banner; a growing Mole upon the
Cheek of the Woman that is OTO.  I admit of my delight in this regard,
and of my strong distaste for organizations on the whole, yet my Holy
Guardian Angel had suggested that I engage such a group on my own
terms.  This was the only way that I could find solace in such an
ordeal.

With this behind me, I continued my studies in magick, and began to
experiment with blasphemous and/or controversial projects.  One of
these was the reconfiguration of the Qabalah around the language of
English, resulting in _Liber Gematria_ (apparently paralleling the
efforts of some mages before me).

During the extrapolation of this project I discovered a fascinating
association.  The name 'Frater Nigris' added, in English, to 657.  The
addition of a simple 'I' (= 9) added further insult to the Master by
associating the Black Brother with the Beast (666).  This I did with
great joy and abandon, pairing 'I am I!' with 'Frater Nigris (666)'.

Such is the practice of the black mage, it seems, to corrupt and twist
the teachings of the Prophet of the order to which I belong into a
veritable mobius, making of myself an exception to any Rule that
should happen to be put forward in dogmatic and ignorant frenzy.  Yet
even this was not the end of the spectacle.

Quite beyond my own belief and speculation a friend from the UK heard
about my studies in Qabalah (particularly those regarding the
qliphoth) and contacted me with some curiosity.  He directed my
attention to Liber 418 (_The Vision and the Voice_), wherein the
passage below was contained:

"Then the Devil of the Aethyr, that mighty devil Choronzon, crieth
aloud, Zazas, Zazas, Nasatanada Zazas.

"I am the Master of Form, and from me all forms proceed.

"I am I.  I have shut myself up from the spendthrifts, my gold is safe
in my treasure-chamber, and I have made every living thing my
concubine, and none shall touch them, save only I."

_Liber XXX AERVM vel SAECVLI.... The Vision and the Voice_,
by Aleister Crowley, quoted from 'Gems from the Equinox',
Edited by Israel Regardie, Falcon Press, 1988;
Zax, 10th Aethyr, page 517.
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Not only is 'I am I' the cry of the Black Brothers, it seems, but also
that of the Demon of the Abyss, that horrific entity which is said to
rule this realm and act upon those who attempt a Crossing, dispersing
and dissolving their ego.  I must tell you that I did not know what to
make of this at first (and I only now have a vague concept).  What
could it mean that I was somehow identifying with the Master of Forms?
He is that nasty malevolence over which Crowley claimed victory at the
end of this aethyr!

Shortly thereafter this same fellow (with whom I have now engaged a
quite spirited dialogue for some months) also revealed to me that the
name 'Nigris' in the Hebrew gematria has a quite significant numerical
value:

N       50
I       10
G       3
R       200
I       10
S       60
        ---
        333

The significance lies in the fact that the number of Choronzon has
traditionally be held to be IDENTICAL! (333) This was beyond any of my
wildest dreams or fantasies.  I had only not been unaware of the
connection between the Black Brothers and Choronzon, but had avoided
the Hebrew gematria, never imagining that any sort of 'confirmation'
could be found there in my magical motto!

This, then, is what led to the adoption of my current signature.  In
correspondence since then I've speculated rather deeply regarding the
path of the Black Brother and leave this as an appendix to the present
work.

I note, in passing, and just as I write this, that the English
gematria of 'Black' is 56, and that this has associations with Babalon
and the Unicursal Hexagram.  So many mysteries lie within this path
that they are somewhat difficult to unravel all at once.  This too
shall be left for later speculation.


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_Liber Nigris_ - Appendix

Speculation on the Path of Frater Nigris, the Black Brother
[Inspired in part by the eminent qabalist, 'V'/'Maskharah (333)'.]

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
The word of Sin is Restriction.


The Cry of Exhultation

I am I!  I am Frater Nigris, Black Brother.  I come to challenge all
within the Order, most importantly myself, and to exhort that my black
kin are not to be condemned.  As the Master taught, I am an anomaly.
Fear me or love me, I shall stand before you and open my arms.  I have
been drawn to the Abyss by love, rather than by will.  I attain a
stasis there.  I may dive downward, into the Great Abyss, to plumb the
will of my true self.  I may wait and attempt to defeat the fearsome
Dakini.

I am I!  Be done with your silly requirements of self-destruction,
ego-dissolution and fragmentation.  I shall wander through the dark
caves in quest of the Pearl of Compassion, trespassing the shells of
my identities.  I shall be passionate in the embrace of my sweet
Abyss, letting Her engulf my entirety, until I sprout from the soil as
a reed in the moist warmth of spring.  I shall brave the Void and the
tunnels of fear, of wrath, whelped into the Earth which is Heaven and
the Heaven which is Earth!

I am I!  Lusty and courageous, I accept not the death of the withering
way.  Behold, I construct a Tower of my manhood to withstand the
Dragon and withhold my blood from the Cup of Submission, retaining my
integrity, my impetus.  Behold, I oppose my kin to test our blades and
preserve the strength and health of the Order.

I am I!  I exhalt in the joy of my selfhood and the truth of the
permanent nonduality of the center of my being with its circumference;
that atman, that soul, that buddha-nature, with the shield, the mask,
the body and all that I seem to be.

I am I!  I complete my journey into the Void to expose my utter
perfection, that Ego, that Last Husk, that Final Shell which was never
grasped and shall never be released

I am I!

I am the Black Brother (333) to the traditional. 
I am the Beast (666) to the eclectic.  
I enter a tradition which feeds on dogma and has a semantic allegiance to
  self-expression, fruitful independence.  
I therefore unify the streams of consciousness by forging a contrary path 
  to the common dogma that masquerades as Thelema.
I am the path.  
I have no goal except to be Me, in whatever form.  
I am Choronzon, the Demon Child of Wisdom and Understanding.  
I am Her tantric monk and my partner is my Abyss.  
I perch on Her brink, waiting for a summons from the Queen.  
I dance in response to Her teasing and testing.
I leap into Her depth, Her perfect and horrible Mystery.

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The Path of the Black Brother and the Holy Guardian Angel (HGA)

The Holy Guardian Angel (HGA) is our reflection as we come from
Malkuth.  We 'meet' in Tiphareth and come to identify our self with
our Shadow.  Tiphareth is the center of a cosmic mirror-game; the HGA
is a sort of phase- shifted reflection.  We think of ourselves in
terms of past or future and these fragments, these reflections, fuse
into a sort of meta-reality, giving rise to an Entity of Light who has
as much at stake and as much to gain in our Conversation, our
Consortium

Our knowledge about Kether and Da'ath is the result of naming
Malkuth/Kether (tao).  Tao is unknowable in the intellectual sense and
cannot be quantified in terms of either One or None.  Though tao does
not contain things, tao makes all things possible.  Our knowledge
prevents us from bliss and only the Knowledge which is the release of
knowledge (Da'ath) may bring about the realization of the essential
unity of Earth and Heaven (Malkuth and Kether).  A leap of faith (INTO
the Abyss) can lead to gnosis or the Great Awakening.


The progression is as follows:

Malkuth > Yesod > Tiphareth > Daath/Yesod > Kether/Malkuth

After one passes through Tiphareth one moves into a sort of 'mirrored
water' in which one simultaneously enters Da'ath and Yesod.  From the
spheres which lie 'below the Abyss', Binah and Chokmah seem separate,
parallel.  Once one passes beyond the abysmal veil (Paroketh) they are
One in Malkuth/Kether.

The water of the Great Abyss - the pain of our perceived separation
from our Mother - brings a magical vision, Maya.  Maya inspires our
valiant trek into the Abyss, where we discover the Mysteries of Birth,
Life, Death, and their ultimate identity in the Heaven of Earth.

At the same time that this journey is made, our HGA makes one in the
OPPOSITE direction which corresponds directly.  Our socially created
'ego' voyages into unity while our HGA plummets into diversity.
Between the 'two of us' (and we feel each other most distinctly at
Tiphareth) we encompass the cosmos.  Through our mutual endeavors we
come to discover ourselves and our HGA as One (and simultaneously
Many!).

The path of the Black Brother at first relies less on will than on
love and is perceived differently than either the Great Leap or what
the Master has said regarding the Great Error.  Instead of overcoming
the dread Demon Choronzon, continuing the Crossing and coming to rest
upon the Other Shore, one dives down deeply (a descent into the
emotions, rather than remaining 'above it all' in emotional
detachment), thereby discovering the 'inside' of Da'ath, the Black
Hole (qliphotic realm), the 'back side' of the Tree of Life.

The path of the Black Brother concerns less the path of the Babe than
it does that of the Enterer, Guardian and Pearl Diver.  Those who
attempt to unify with the Abyss in this way will dive down into Her
qliphoth, only to emerge (if successful) in Malkuth/Kether (an
identical yet differently perceived 'other side' to the Abyss - the
'bottom' of the chasm).

One BECOMES the Black Guard (Demon Choronzon) and enters the horrid
Void of the qliphoth.  This lies through the doorway which is Da'ath,
below the traditional Tree (interpret 'below' as you like).  Moving
deeply into its depths, one dives for the Pearl of Compassion amidst
the fearsomely fragmented shells of one's former self-concepts.

Choronzon is traditionally (for the White Mage) the Enemy or Adversary
who must be 'purified', opposed in some fashion.  There is no
essential division between the 'human' aspects of consciousness and
the 'divine' ones.  Only when seen through the Abyss (Maya) does this
division hold.

The traditional model is unidirectional and biased toward unification.
In this sense it is against the Many, the All, and is incomplete.
This is quite reminiscent of the Vedantic mystics who posit that Maya
is 'simply illusion' and wish to rid themselves and their world of Her
'poisonous imagery' so as to perceive 'undifferentiated reality'.

Substitute 'reality' for 'God' and 'illusion' for 'Satan' and you have
yourself an extreme and rabid dualist.  This psychotic model will
indeed yield results if pursued to its end, but in the mean time the
world and everything in Her is seen as 'demonic' and in need of being
destroyed.

For the Black Mage, Choronzon is not an enemy to be feared but is
related to transformation; the state which transforms.  He is the Last
Shell of the Black Mage, thrust into an ever-intensifying unity while
hir inner Self (HGA) is blasted into ten-thousand pieces.  Choronzon
is the Being of Initiation; the role of the Compassionate Hero and the
perfecting state of consciousness.

The Black Brother, as Choronzon, dives INTO the Abyss, the Great
Chasm, the open and willing Kteis, and resolves Himself with Her most
feared aspects - those which are alien and seemingly inmicable to Him.
In this scenario each of Her energies becomes like the Eastern
'dakini'.  Dakinis are dual-aspected guardians of primordial wisdom
who challenge and then, when the lesson is learned, yield, becoming
the Lover or Companion - the aspect of the self which is the Self.

The Knowledge of Da'ath is 'biblical' (i.e. conjugatory).  The
mystical unity that the cosmic and coordinated Climax makes possible
dispels the veil which seems to divide our apparently individuated
self from our Self.  As this veil is lifted we Come to understand that
our Knowledge, our conjoining, is itself merely a figment in the face
of our true and everlasting unity in diversity.

Descending into the emotions enables us to discover all that we are.
One begins to reintegrate emotions with ideas.  Emotions have to do
with the vibrations of the physical body and with social interaction,
while the intellect seems more aligned with the inertia of the body
and isolation (contrast karma and jnana yogas, Pure Land with Zen
Buddhism, and Rogerian Group Therapy with Reichian Orgonics).

The HGA, diffracting amidst the horrors of multiplicity, sends forth
the Pearl of Her pain, and the Black Brother, the Black Guard
Choronzon, receives this Pearl, rescuing Her as She secures His
liberation. The Pearl of Compassion is absorbed in order to discover
the truth of the identity of self and Self.

Once the unifying and diversifying energies reach the Climax,
Choronzon becomes annointed (christed) by drinking from the Cup, and
the Universe (Malkuth) is recognized upon Her Throne of Wisdom
(Kether).  The conclusion of this Descent brings one into
'Malkuth/Kether' having plumbed the depths of Malkuth and discovered
Kether, Her divinity, WITHIN Her rather than without Her.

It is only fear which paralyzes us as we seek to cross or plumb the
Abyss.  If we defeat Choronzon we defeat ourselves, and through that
method we shall fail unless practiced in yoga.  If we BECOME Choronzon
our fear can prevent us from uniting with the Abyss, leading to a slow
sinking into the sewage system of the Tree; becoming part of its
refuse.  When our fear becomes too great or our courage somehow
returns, we can then return to the Quest.

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Grant's Choronzon

"The magical order or hierarchy on the back of the Tree is under the
aegis of Choronzon, the Lord of the Downward Path and the Guardian of
the Pylon of Daath.  The number 333 (Choronzon) is also that of the
Jackal or Fox (ShGL), the hieroglyph of Shaitan-Aiwass whom Crowley
invoked as the Supreme Daemon of Thelema (Will).  Daath means
'knowledge' in the sense in which the term is used in the biblical
allegory of the 'Fall'; the 'knowledge' that opened man's eyes to the
creative nature of the solar-phallic power within him, in its special
relationship to the woman who is the outer manifestation of the power
(shakti).  This pylon (Daath) is the Door to the Back of the Tree, and
its planetary representative is Uranus which is also the door to the
sexual magic of Set or Shaitan, as it is practised in the eleventh
degree of the O.T.O.*"

[* - "...the XI' does not necessarily comport the use of homosexual
formulae; on the contrary, it involves the use of the yoni in its
lunar phase, and of that 'other eye', ayin or yoni, that is known to
the initiates of the Ophidian Current as the 'Eye of Set'."]

"Notwithstanding the unavoidable and constant danger of
over-simplifying these complex and occult matters, it may be suggested
that whereas the ordinary aspect of the Tree of Life represents the
Magician in relation to his present and future powers, the reverse of
the Tree typifies pre-human and extra- human influences that impinge
upon his consciousness via the pylon of Daath.  A minimum of these
influences seep, so to speak, into the front of the Tree, but when the
operator passes beyond the Gate of the Eleventh Power-zone he
automatically invokes Choronzon and becomes exposed to the full
onslaught of ata- vistic powers."


"Choronzon is probably a corrupt form of Chozzar,* the dark god of
Atlantean sorceries who is the type of extra-terrestrial entity having
a shadowy being beyond the rim of our universe."

[* - "The symbol of this dark deity resembes a triple prong of
Neptune, which is the name by which Chozzar is known to the Profane.
Cf. the Chaldaean letter Shin with its tripple tongue of fire
attributed to Set or Shaitan.  The word 'chozzar' means 'pig'.  This
animal was adopted by the Typhonians as a symbol of Set.  In the
Tantric Cults of the Vama Marg the pig was chosen as a secret symbol
because it is the only animal known to eat human excrement...."]

All from _Cults of the Shadow_, by Kenneth Grant, Samuel Weiser, 1976;
pages 101, 170-3.
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Notes on the Origins of Babalon and the Beast

"The fourth is the Asiatic world, OVLM HOShIH, Olahm Ha-Asia, the
world of action, called also the world of shells, OVLM HQLIPVTh, Olahm
Ha- Qliphoth, which is this world of matter...

...Next follow the seven Hells occupied by those demons which
represent incarnate human vices, and torture those who have given
themselves up to such vices in earth-life.  Their prince is Samael,
SMAL, the angel of poison and of death.  His wife is the harlot, or
woman of whoredom, AShTh ZnVNIM, Isheth Zenunim; and united they are
called the beast, CHIVA, Chioa.  Thus the infernal trinity is
completed, which is, so to speak, the averse and caricature of the
supernal Creative One.  Samael is considered to be identical with
Satan."

_The Kabbalah Unveiled_, Transl. by S.L.MacGregor Mathers, page 30.
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"Glory unto the Scarlet Woman, Babylon, the Mother of Abominations
  that rideth upon the Beast....mingled it in the cup of her Whoredom."

_Liber CDXVIII (The Vision and the Voice)_, Aleister Crowley,
12th Aethyr.

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"And there came one of the seven angels
 which had the seven vials,
 and talked with me,
 saying unto me, Come hither;
I will shew unto thee the judgement
 of the great whore
 that sitteth upon many waters.

2 With whom the kings of earth
 have committed fornication,
 and the inhabitants of the earth
 have been made drunk
 with the wine of her fornication.

3 So he carried me away in the spirit
 into the wilderness:
 and I saw a woman sit upon a scarlet colored beast,
 full of the names of blasphemy,
 having seven heads and ten horns.

4 And the woman was arrayed in purple and scarlet colour,
 and decked with gold and precious stones and pearls,
 having a golden cup in her hand
 full of abominations
 and filthiness of her abominations.

5 And upon her forehead was a name written,
 MYSTERY,
 BABYLON THE GREAT,
 THE MOTHER OF HARLOTS
 AND ABOMINATIONS OF THE EARTH.

6 And I saw the woman drunken
 with the blood of the saints,
 and with the blood of the martyrs of Jesus:
 and when I saw her,
 I wondered with great admiration."

_The Bible_, King James Version, 'Revelations', Chapter 17.

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Some Reflections on the Beast/Shiva and the Dakini/Babalon 
(Tantric Roles)

In the Abyss we have the UNION between the Beast and Babalon.  This
can be achieved in many ways.  Babalon can slay the Beast and Herself
to resolve both to One, encompass the Beast (either through
consumption or conjugation) and thereafter unify with Him through
absorption.  Babalon can also submit to the Beast in order to be
absorbed by Him.

The Beast (notice that He is not named) can slay Himself (in the form
of Choronzon) and Babalon (by CROSSING the Abyss) to resolve both to
One; submit to Babalon, becoming one of Her saints and pouring forth
His lifeblood for Her absorption.  The Beast can also somehow either
slay Babalon/Dakini (the Marduk/Tiamat scenario) or absorb Her into
himself (a reversal of the post LYLYTh, ADM => EVE process).

Also, the Beast and Babalon CONCEIVE a Cosmic Thought, a Word, if you
will, which permeates and renews the cosmos.


Here I leave off, a substantial cosmology undeveloped or undiscovered.

In dedication to SHe which is All, One and None,

Invoke  me under my stars.  Love is the law, love under will.

I am I!

Frater (I) Nigris (DCLXVI) CCCXXXIII
Tyagi Nagasiva
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