kaliyuga
49960531 (6 days pre-AA)

|> 49960530 (1 week before the beginning of the Aeon of the Adversary)

49960530 - kali yuga 4996; 05th month; 30th day


|Huh?

satan/shaitan means 'adversary'.  the wild nature rises up in a time of
intensity of light at the Solstice of the Gods, the turning point when
the religions of the Lord of Light and Creation are opposed by those
more feeling and compassionate for the remaining residents of the biosphere.

an 'Aeon' is many things, but to some it is a period of time, like an
age.  there are some who wish to connect to the 'Age of Aquarius', an
astrological time period typically 1900-2300 yrs resulting from the
'precession of the equinoxes' which occurs due to the wobbling of Mom
on Her axis.  many connect certain themes with their identified aeon,
sometimes identified within Egyptian mythotypes and usually related
to the spirit of Western religion.  typically prophets and occultists
propose a cosmological foundation for their ages, though while I like
to think this is the case for the AA, it is mostly for me and my kin.  

Crowley's new aeon started in 1904 at his reception of _The Book of 
the Law_ from his Holy Guardian Angel, Aiwass, whom he identified with 
Satan, and its mythological theme was encompassed by the Egyptian god 
Horus, the Hawk-headed Warlord.  This was after a succession of Isis
of the Mother Goddess and matriarchies (popular idea among occultists,
though not really substantiated as a religious system in archeology)
and Osiris, whose stories closely resemble those of Christ and so are
typically identified with the Christian period between 0 and 2000 CE).

however, Crowley's aeon was of multiple meaning and it is very easy
to presume he meant to imply by his 'Equinox of the Gods' (i.e. the
change of aeons in 1904) something metaphorically similar to the
seasonal Spring Equinox, near which his revelation supposedly occurred
(April 8/9/10 in Egypt).  this implies further the ascendancy of LIGHT,
and of solar energies, sunrise, etc.: the Aeon of Horus.

the Aeon of the Adversary is my own invention (I made it up).  it relates
to the end of the ascendancy of LIGHT (at solstice - sun still/stop) and
implies the turning point where DARKNESS now begins to rise toward an
equal status (equinox - 'equal night' with day).  the concept of the
'Solstice of the Gods' is one I made up in relation to the previous ideas
and as its beginning for me is 96/6/6 it directly relates to the WILD BEAST,
that forsaken and usually hunted animal within us and outside us with which
numerous occultists have identified (including Crowley, whose works I
greatly admire; in the Egyptian theme its successor might imply Set, though 
I'm inclined toward goddesses like Nephthys or Ma'at).

if you want more information about this I'd be happy to provide/create. ;>


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the Blade of Love, consecrated as a tool recently at Dark Moon for the
service of Satan.  I use it to cut meat and big items like bread.  Very
meaningful as relates to the Pillar of Church of Euthanasia: cannibalism.


first half inch is not serrated and is nicely pointed, pretty sharp.
I played with it recently on Dark Moon, seeing how it felt to have
such a big sharp blade near to my body and skin, introducing it to
my skin and toying with visualization of cutting up various parts
of me.  intriguing.


|Do you want permanent scarring, or not?  

I hadn't thought much about it, since my major objective is the
signing of a pact that reads:

	96-6-6
		Satanas Paternas,

			I render unto You my entirety
			in the opposition to our enemies,

			in exchange for the satiation
			of my every desire.

			The Aeon of the Adversary is made.

			[space for blood signature, my double-star]


I've thought about using the point on the tattoo upon my right thigh,
but am unsure this is right for me.  I've thought about it in the
fleshy part of my hand (often right) too, but would love ot hear
other suggestions especially symbolic (genitalia? hmmm).
 

|Do you want a lot of blood, or just a bit?  

I need enough to whet a stylus for the signature, which shouldn't be
too much, but enough such that it leaves a distinct and lasting sig.
for example, I don't think a pinprick would do it, but I don't think
I need to endanger my life or leave a huge scar.


|Is the "wild wilderness ritual" to be your initiation?  

a pact, my entirety for the service of the Dark Lord.
an initiation into Satanism.


|As far as I'm concerned, Satan is lucky to get you :^)  

Satan is the Lord of this World.  SHe is going to get me regardless,
as this body has a limited time here and will return to the soil
of the grave or to the elements should I accomplish a wilderness
abandonment prior to my death in any event.  I don't believe in
the concept of the soul other than as a part of subjective 
experience and am satisfied in rejecting the concept as it has
never felt right to me and rarely served me or wild nature.

thus my dedication and pact is in some measure a deception and in
some an intentional focus upon body, nature, and wild untamed
energies in myself and elsewhere.


|But will Kali be jealous?

to me They are essentially the same, though of different visages 
and relations/descriptions/term-origins.  Satan is how Kali's 
wildness (I associate Kali with a number of entities, such as 
Gaia, as life, as well as the whole cosmos which is at times 
inimical to that life, esp for the purpose of serving itself) 
appears within Christo-Islamic culture.

I'm unsure of the relationship of these personages, but
Kali is definitely the power of nature, while I see Satan
and Kali as (esp. wild) nature entire.

Kali is feminine, Satan is dual-gendered.  I don't yet
have an understanding of what this means or how it will
affect rites or my experience of the future beyond the
evident relationship between Satan and Baphomet.  in some 
great measure my ideas and intellectual postulations about 
this are of absolutely no consequence, though where they 
lend power and impetus this is valuable.

I am *married* to Kali (ma - often associated with Mother).
I will be *in the service of* Satan (which for some odd
reason I have often associated with Father, perhaps some
strange psychospiritual alchemy brewing - I shall only come
to understand it completely as it unfolds; I have very often
identified my father as a demon -- see Merlin, whose father
was a demon and who is sometimes said to have a black dog).


Any additional commentary or queries would be appreciated.
As the date 6/6/6 approaches it is of tremendous benefit
for me to reflect upon these things and what they mean to
me so that I can carry them into the ritual itself and
intensify it.

nocTifer (name within Satanic and esp. Christian groups: bringer of darkness)
tyagi@houseofkaos.abyss.com