A vision of the Square "T" of ISMT of the Fiery Lesser
Angle of the Earth Tablet.
Begun 11/11/85, 11:11 am.
I had determined to do an exploration of a square of an Enochian tablet
following the directions and system described by Regardie in The Golden
Dawn. I selected a square from the Earth tablet, "T" or "M"1, the rightmost
kerubic square of the Fiery Lesser Angle.
I derived the appropriate divine names for invoking the square, and
constructed the pyramid in the imagination. The north side and top
colored black, the other three visible sides colored red. I imagined the
kerub being hidden within the pyramid, and a ray of light descending to or
ascending from the pyramid.2
I performed the sign of the Enterer, and went into the pyramid. As this
happened, the sides attributed to Fire changed from red to the flashing
color, green. On the inside, the walls changed from green to red. I saw the
sphinx of the sub-element, which had the head of a bull and the body,
legs, and tail of the male lion. I gave the 5=6 signs, and tested him with
the letters, at which he seemed to expand while maintaining shape. This
indicated he was genuine.
I invited the sphinx to take me to a place where I could see the effect of
this square in nature. Immediately we went to a place far underground,
where a river of fire was being constricted and pushed back by a wall or
barrier of rock. It seemed to be as if the fire was sealed off in a round
space entirely surrounded by cold rock. I was told that the effect of the
square had to do with the encapsulation of a force, all-potent within its
own sphere of action, by a slower force acting on a larger scale. The wall
of rock could be seen to move very slowly, forcing the fire into a smaller
space.
An example was shown. We went to the western edge of the United
States, and to the subduction zone where the edge of the Pacific tectonic
plate was forced down underneath the edge of the continent. Despite its
great melting heat, the molten rock of the mantle is pushed back down by
the edge of the plate.
As another example I was taken to a Kimberlite pipe in Africa. These
"pipes" are the cooled remains from an action like that of the square. The
hot material had been cut off from the mantle and forced close to the
surface by immense pressure from the surrounding rock. The combination
of heat and pressure caused the formation of carbon crystals, diamonds,
in the pipe.
I asked to see the spiritual animal of the square. Only gnomes were
shown. The gnomes all had stubby arms and legs, and heads elongated
from front to back until they were almost football-shaped. The short limbs
and the shape of the head allowed them to move very quickly (in a
horizontal position) along very small tunnels in the rock. They appeared to
be strong.
I vibrated the name of the god of the square, Horus. (He is god because
the square has three fiery sides, despite being in the tablet of Earth).
Horus appeared, and I gave him the 5=6 signs. He responded with the
same signs, then added the signs of 1=10 and 4=7. I judged this to be
reasonable since these are the signs of earth and fire, represented by this
square.
Horus showed me the sphinx of the square again, but his varied from
mine in that the head was that of a buffalo with a fringe of hair along the
jaw-line. The body was more elongated than the sphinx who guided me,
like a cheetah, and of a reddish-orange color. The head was black that
turned a dark glowing green, like the shine on beetle's wings, where it was
highlighted.3
Horus said: "Bemoan me, o worshiper, for though I am truly the god of
this pyramid, yet my own powers have come to naught in this place. The
fire is ever smothered by the greater earth, and here my force and fire are
leached from me."
He appeared to have nothing more to say, so I requested to see the type
of man represented by the square. I was shown a large, thick-headed
man with a square brow and dark hair. His body was like that of a
wrestler, or like that of the God Mars, and he wore nothing but a loincloth.
The skin was colored dark brown, but the features were caucasian. I got
the impression that this man was stolid and determined, and that he got
his way in life by forcing himself into the position he wanted, and then
refusing to move from it until everyone else accepted the fait accompli. He
is lacking in any really demonstrative characteristics, but has the slow but
unremitting force of a glacier.
In the plant kingdom, this square controls the lives of seeds buried in
permafrost or hard ground, and also the way in which roots of plants force
their way into tiny cracks in rock.
In the animal kingdom, the force was shown me in those mammals that
bury themselves for the winter, and in insects that store their eggs in
underground capsules while they hatch.
I asked to see the effect in human society, and was shown a group of
persons entering a cave for purposes of worship. They did so because the
ground insulated them from the influences of other living things, allowing
them to concentrate an unusually large amount of pure god-force without
having it leak away.
In the human arts, the square relates to the use of pigments produced by
burning or roasting certain minerals.
On a cosmic scale, the square shares with others the responsibility for the
formation of a cold crust on molten, recently-formed planets.
It was pointed out to me that the entire column of squares governed by
this square also had a part to play in the details of the processed
described. At this point, I felt I was getting tired, so I ended the vision and
returned to my body.
I closed the temple by banishing the forces.
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A Vision of the Square "M" of of ISMT of the Fiery
Lesser Angle of the Earth Tablet.
Begun 11/13/85, 9:15 pm.
This square is the one immediately to the left of the square used in the
above vision. While still in the fiery sub-element of the Earth Tablet, its
north, south, east, and west sides are attributed to Earth, Fire, Scorpio,
and the Queen of Wands, respectively. There are still two parts fire in the
square, but one of the previous fire sides has turned to water. It also is
attributed to Heh of IHVH.
I visualized the pyramid of the square standing in the middle of my astral
temple. As I did so, the temple darkened, and the pyramid became more
clearly visible. The top was black with the letter Tal (M) in white. The north
side had the four-color Enochian emblem of Earth on a black background.
The east became dark blue with the Eagle kerub in orange-yellow. On the
south, the simple triangle of fire in red. The west side showed Crowley's
version of the Queen of Wands, the fiercely imperious woman and her
leopard mascot. 4
The fiery sides of the pyramid flashed from red to green to red again. I
gave the sign of the Enterer and passed into the pyramid, giving the sign
of Silence when centered in it.
The sphinx was there. It had the head of a wild ox or buffalo, the
forequarters of the Lion, the hindquarters of the Eagle, and the tail of the
lion.5 Given the 5=6 sign, it responded with the same signs, and added
the signs of Earth and Water6. The sphinx stood up on its hind legs and
leaped up into the beam emanating from the top of the pyramid. I
sounded the divine names of the square again, and followed the sphinx
up through the beam.
I rose up the planes for a while without encountering any cohesive
images. Suddenly I came out into a dark scene. The background of the
scene consisted of a mountain range, beginning out of sight to my right,
and continuing south for some miles before turning east. After crossing to
the east, the range tapered down to a promontory. This tongue of land
stuck out into a dark sea that filled the rest of the east. From behind the
mountains to the south rose clouds, covering the sky.
In front of the mountains, an inlet of the sea protruded across the picture,
up to the base of the western mountains. The water was a very dark
grayish-brown, with an oily sheen to the surface.
The foreground of the scene was a hard, cold rock shelf or shield, with
nothing growing on it. When I turned around, the scene to the north simply
faded into blackness. The ground had a slick feel to it.
I went forward to examine the water. It was no more clear from close up,
although I could see that most of its opacity came from suspended
particles. The particles looked almost like silver metalflake paint. The
surface of the water was slightly convex where it touched the shore,
becoming higher the farther you went from shore.
I was invited to stick my hand in the water. I did so quickly and pulled it
out again. I could see the oiliness and a thin coating of the metalflakes on
my hand. Then the flesh all dissolved, leaving the bare bones. This
dissolving continued on up the arm until I shook it, after which the flesh
came back. I either thought, or heard someone say, "The Waters of
Death".
Looking to the west, I tried to see what was at the end of the inlet. The
shore could not be seen due to clouds of steam or mist. But farther up the
cliff, there seemed to be drops of glowing orange liquid seeping or
sweating through the rock. When I tried to see more detail, that area of
the scene dimmed.
I then noted that there was a glow reflecting from the clouds to the south.
The source of light seemed to be behind the mountains. I rose up until I
could see what was there. To the west and south appeared a great sea of
fire, orange-red. In the western area, the fire moved in visible currents. To
the south, it was a flaming field.
Where the fire met the water in the east, great billows of steam arose, to
become the clouds visible from the north. The two elements completely
balanced each other, so that there was always just enough water flowing
south to stop the fire from getting to the north and east. They met at an
unwavering line that stretched to the horizon.
Moving back above the mountains, I examined the fire more closely.
There was an impression that the fire was under great pressure to cross
the mountains into the north. It rose up in waves, higher and higher into
the sky, but there seemed to be an invisible barrier above the mountains,
and it could not pass them. It fell back.
I asked to see the animal related to the square, and was shown a sort of
were-creature in the process of changing from a large fish to a bull. The
front half had the torso and head of the minotaur, and the bottom half was
the rear half of a fish. The fire aspect seemed completely absent, until I
noticed or was told that the fire was the transformation itself.
It was then pointed out that the animal was frozen in the middle of its
transformation, and that this "freezing" was a function of the power of the
square. I gathered that it controlled the retention of neonatal
characteristics in otherwise mature organisms. The human retention of
the relative hairlessness of the newborn is an example of this. It also
controls cases in which a species that goes through metamorphoses as
part of the maturation process begins to stop itself at some point before
the final metamorphosis occurs. No species was given for this second
effect.
I asked to see the power of the square as it acted in the mineral kingdom.
I was shown a place in the Pacific Trench, very deep, where lava flowed
out of a vent in the side of the trench. The pressure is so great that the
water does not explode when the hot lava hits it. Only a thin layer of
steam is produced between them, and the water carries off the heat from
the steam, cooling the lava and stopping its advance.
For an example of this force in the plant kingdom, I was shown a
microscopic view of the pistil of a flower. The pistil was a long stem full of
microscopic tubules. As I watched, a grain of pollen came down one
tubule and united with an egg cell. Behind this first grain, more grains tried
to come down the tube, but the tube was closed off by being filled with
sap before they could get close to the egg. This closing of the passage is
the function of the square's force. In the human being, a similar process
goes on when the fertilized egg grows a thick outer membrane
immediately after the first sperm cell enters it.
The type of person represented by the square was a woman, with a body
that appeared wide when viewed from the front or back, but looked thin
from the side. The upper face was square, with a triangular jaw line. The
hair was dark brown with blonde highlights. The skin was also tanned
dark. Her dress was an absurd collection of red and blue polka dots on a
black base. I could not get a strong impression of the temperament of this
person.
As an example of the force acting in human society, I was shown an
image of two groups of people acting at cross-purposes. I got the
impression that this was not interference of an active or willful type.
Instead, the two groups blocked each other "by surprise", in ways that do
not directly relate to the function of either. An ambulance having its route
blocked by a Shriner's parade, for instance.
The vision seemed to be weakening at this point, so I returned to my
temple and banished the forces. I then returned to my body.
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The Square "S" of ISMT of the Fiery Lesser Angle
of the Earth Tablet.
Begun 11/16/85. 12:12 pm.
I vibrated the calls and the names, and visualized the pyramid. For a few
moments, I got an image of rapidly blowing air, the movement being
generated by heat from fires below. However, the heat did not reach up to
the level where I was, which was cool.
Above me I saw the sphere of the earth looming down towards me, but
the sense of gravity was pulling towards the fire and not the earth. There
was an impression of many angels or beings flashing by me, but I could
not see them clearly, only a silvery-white or yellow blur. It seemed that
they were moving too fast to see. But some of them would stop for just a
split-second to look at me, and by the time the images of them registered,
they would be gone again.
The "afterimages" from these brief stops let me see that they were
wearing diaphanous white or yellow gowns, much like the usual T-cross
magician's robe, but with two or three additional layers of sheer cloth that
blew in the wind. They seemed to have dark faces with blonde hair, and a
sharp but delicate bone structure. The eyes were wide, dark, and serious.
At the time I did not consciously see more than this. The last thing I recall
hearing was a voice saying "What the force of the square "T" conceals
and encysts, here I disperse."
I couldn't seem to get a clearer picture, or to get another image, so I
returned to my body, thinking that the attempt had failed, and that it would
have to be done over again. Yet there was sense of things unfinished. I
felt restless. The body wanted to move around and do something active.
My mind felt relaxed and free of pressures, but unable to focus, or to
produce the idea for something to do. And despite this feeling, there was
a pressure on the top of the head that was giving me a tension headache.
(All this obviously relates to the forces of the pyramid. Fire at the bottom,
air in the middle, and earth at the top.)
Sometimes such feelings indicate that there is a message to be passed to
me by automatic writing. I had learned this talent early, and had
developed it to the point where it was actually automatic typing using my
word-processor, often at faster speed than I can type consciously.
I sat down at the processor, and got just a little bit of message. The being
identified himself as NSITM, the archangel ruling this square of the tablet.
He said that he had come to tell me all about the kerubic squares of this
lesser angle. He began an introductory sentence, and then the sense of
contact was cut off completely. There was no impression that the
intelligence was still around.
The restless feelings reappeared. I did a banishing, hoping this would at
least tone down the power of it. In spite of the banishings, this feeling of
the power of the square continued for most of the day. I felt both mentally
dispersed and physically restless until evening, when an additional
banishing caused them to cease.
But in writing this down the next day, I found that I remembered a great
deal more than I had seen at the time. The events described below were
not consciously experienced, but in writing this account they appeared to
me as a memory of an event that had actually happened. I can not
distinguish it from the memory of other visions that I did have consciously.
The only thing that convinces me now that I did not see it consciously is
my memory of doing other things at the time, and being totally unaware of
such a vision occurring. Apparently the vision continued at some level of
my mind without my attention.
After the fact, I recall seeing a picture of a great white cliff. The ground
extending back from the top of the cliff was black. Along the face of this
cliff, a large number of angels worked, hurriedly bringing things, and
taking things away. I could not see clearly what they brought7, but it went
into the cliff face and was buried in the earth. The angels took away great
pieces of the cliff itself, which looked crystalline from a closer viewpoint.
These pieces they scattered about the surface of the earth, producing life
in great variety. Everywhere a piece fell, new life arose into being. Each
new life was actually a whole planet somewhere in the cosmos, with its
entire systems of animals, plants and intelligent beings.
And an angel said to me: "The cycle of life in the earth is controlled by
these squares of the lesser angle of fire, in the Wall of Earth. First, in the
square "T", is the life injected into the potential of being by the will of the
gods. It takes on the quality of earth, and therefore does its flashing
brightness bemoan its loss of self. But without its loss, the earth were
mere dead matter, inert and without possibility of form.
"In the square "M" is the life spread throughout the earth. Where the fires
of "T" were encapsulated as it were, so the waters of "M" do leach the life
from its capsule, and spread it throughout the base-matter, making it living
and receptive to the thoughts of the gods. Under the pressure from the
earth above, this life-infested matter changes to a crystalline form. Each
unit of crystal possesses the full capabilities of the original life-impulse,
with the added ability to produce more life-crystals without loss to itself."8
(I noted in passing that while the individual units had a crystalline form,
they did appear to have some inherent flexibility. There was also a vitality
to them, an impression that one body was not enough to hold their force.
They were ready to multiply at any instant. When the crystals were in
groups, they bunched together in a way that reminded me of muscle
fibers, so that individual crystals could slide around a bit without losing
place in the group.)
I asked the angel why my vision of the square "M" had not revealed this.
The angel replied that it did, but that I had misinterpreted what I saw. The
drops of glowing fire on the cliff face of that vision were the encapsulated
lives of the square "T". They fell into the waters, where they were
dispersed and distributed throughout the earth. The metallic flakes in the
water were the dissolved lives of "T". The waters were called the "Waters
of Death", both because of the Scorpio connection and because to the
lives it did indeed appear as a form of death, that is, a disruption of their
unity. The steam of the meeting of fire and water in that vision produced
the air in which the angel and I were presently standing. The fact that the
square "M" was a transitional form accounted for the were-creature and
the other references to retained characteristics.
He also mentioned that if I had used the main attributes, I would have
seen the flakes of life come out of the water greatly expanded. Each
would have been equal to the original drops of fire, and be blown
westward into the square "S". Thus the life multiplied itself out of the
energy of matter. I would also have seen that they emerged from their
bath with an aspect of hardness and sharpness that they did not have
before. The waters are the waters of the Styx, and they are armored like
Achilles from the water's touch. But having been bathed fully, they have
known Death and will no longer feel the touch of his arrow.
The angel continued: "These processes are ever continuous, so that the
crystals of life must be moved from their place, to make way for yet more
life. Here in the square "S", we take the encapsulated lives of the square
"T", and place them in the richest parts of the earth. In return, we take the
crystals of life that are extruded from the cliff face, and we scatter them
across the universe, so that the gods will have many canvasses upon
which to work their art."
The angel showed me the scattering of the life-crystals. The material
universe is seen as a great plane of energy from this square. It is in fact
the field of flames that caused the air to move at the beginning of the
vision. This energy in great abundance is everywhere ideal for the
seeding of life, for it can do nothing of itself, but must have the impulse of
life to bring it into form.
Within the field, there are stresses that dictate that life take one form or
another in order to move there. Incompatible forms are destroyed quickly,
because they can not assimilate the kinds of energy available. I saw the
angels take the life-crystal lumps they carried, and cut them into pieces
that matched the stresses in a particular area. Then they would place the
pieces carefully, so that the lines of stress in the area were aligned with
the striations of the crystals. Leftover pieces were shaped to fill the
stressed area to its full limits. The angel told me that this activity caused
all the niches in the ecology to be filled with appropriate life.
Each piece so placed began to radiate like a sun, even brighter than the
fires in which it lay. The light increased as the fires themselves began to
take on the pattern and radiance of the crystals. It was said: "Thus does
life create order, out of the chaos of universal energy. Through its very
existence, it demands that the energy of the material world take on orderly
forms. Not only within the limits of its own area, but extending by its
radiance to other areas that have no life of their own. Its living beings
become gods, and the agents of gods, making the creation in matter."
Without pause, the angel went on: "In coming to these squares, you
sought knowledge of the enochian worlds, and of the powers thereof. We
have given you in full measure what we have here, and will give more as
you explore the last of our squares,"I". That you have not seen all that is
here is certain, for as you know no man will see even a fraction of the
whole. Even the gods rejoice in such unknowing, for it allows the
possibility of Discovery. Yet we have given, and will give to the extent of
our natures. Such as you come rarely to this world, who seek solely for
understanding and knowledge, and hope for power only over self. To you
we may give all that we have, all that we know, all that we be. Let your will
go forth to continue this search, and your reward will be as the heavens
made manifest."9
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(The piece that follows occurred simultaneous with, but separate from, the
Angel's speech in this vision. It is the same theme played in a different
key. The ways in which they harmonize will be left, as they say, as an
exercise for the reader.)
At the same time as the angel spoke, I saw the primordial universe,
divided into light and dark. The light and dark were separated along a
plane that extended to infinity. There was no way to understand the size
of what I saw, as there was nothing else in the image to compare it with.
The dark appeared to be a solid wall. There was no intermixture with the
light.
I looked more closely at the wall, comparing it with the light in which I
stood, and understood that it was not truly dark. The two sides were
interchangeable. If I had been on the other side, that side would have
looked light and this side dark.
An angel at my side told me that the light and dark were energy and
matter. Matter is energy turned inside out. The interface between light and
dark was actually at the level of what would be Tiphereth when the
universe was created. All of the matter of the lower planes belongs to the
other side. He emphasized again that if I were on the other side the
situation would look exactly the same, but with that side being in the light.
The light side, while clearly full of energy, was totally transparent. It had
no characteristics of any kind that could be seen.
Suddenly a stream of light shot down towards the wall from behind me. As
it hit the wall and passed through it shattered into a multitude of small,
independent and self-sustaining units of energy.
These units drew a shell of matter around themselves, so that they could
barely be seen. Their energy interpenetrated to the surface of the shell.
Eventually all the energy gathered into the shell, leaving the center
hollow. (I was told that the deepest point in matter reached by the
descending beam was Malkuth of the Tree.)
Matter tried to eject these shells, since they were a disturbance of its
normal motion. It could not do so, but its attempts put a steady pressure
on the shells. Forcing the shells into a smaller area caused their energy to
be concentrated, bringing them to a higher state of awareness.
With this increased awareness, the lives withdrew some of their
substance from the shell, and concentrated it in their centers. The
concentration of energy caused a rotary field of some sort to be
generated around each shell. The matter was seen to have an innate
rotation that was exactly opposite to that of the unit's. This opposition of
fields caused the pressure on the units to increase tremendously. Each
unit was forced to concentrate more of its energy in its center to maintain
its integrity. But at the same time, the interaction of the fields generated
even more energy, so that the units could add all the new energy they
needed.
This additional energy helped fill the center and support the shell against
matter. But the pressure also increased, in a kind of feedback loop, so
that one process encouraged the other, which in turn encouraged the first.
The units of energy became steadily brighter and stronger within their
shells.
Eventually some of the units found they could discard their shells
altogether, and maintain themselves against matter's pressure solely
through their own energetic counterpressure. The frictional effects of the
two fields continued to generate more energy within the units, allowing
them to continue expanding.
Since the units were not imbedded too deeply in matter, some of them
eventually expanded to the degree that their bubbles of counterpressure
broke through the surface of matter and back out into the light. Their own
pressure caused them to be blown out through the holes they made, and
into the light. Most of them immediately withdrew back into matter, but
with several such experiences they moved out permanently, while
maintaining their connection with matter in order to keep generating the
energy they needed to expand.
The area covered by their connections to matter expanded as they did.
Eventually, both the units and their connections expanded until they were
lost out of sight, and there was nothing to indicate that they had ever been
there. But the entire visible area was now just a small area within one
unit's connecting cord, so the appearance of emptiness was false.
A voice said: This is how the gods reproduce. All gods are positive, and
therefore can not mate with each other and produce a new entity on their
own level. So they follow the ancient way, and throw parts of themselves
into matter, there to disintegrate into the motes you saw. It is essential
that they go through matter, for this is their source of independent life and
had this not been done, the extended energy would return to its god and
meld with his being again. Reproduction would fail.
"These motes are the souls of those who became men and women. Both
[sexes] are positive with respect to matter, and both have potential to
become gods again. There is no difference between them. [The emphasis
is the speaker's, not the scribe's.] Some break their shells early, giving joy
to their parent. Others stay encysted until the end of the world, when they
are drawn out of matter whether or not they wish."
(Somewhere in all the above, it was pointed out that an entity on the side
of things that saw our matter as light and our light as matter, would see
exactly the same process going on from his side. The sparks sent into
their matter would appear in our world as energy shooting from Malkuth to
Tiphereth, and then spending all their time trying to force their way back
into Malkuth again. These entities are known to us as demons. Of course,
the demons think we are the demons.)
The two visions merged at the point where the angel said "In coming to
these squares. . .".
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Square "I" of ISMT. Fiery Lesser Angle of the Earth Tablet.10
9:19 pm 11/17/85
Rehearsed the calls and the names, and visualized the pyramid. The
pyramid for this square has north = earth, east = earth kerub = Taurus,
west = earth of fire of earth = Princess of Wands, and south = fire.
I did not feel like I was getting much of response to the invocation. The
pyramid was unclear, and would not focus despite repeated invocations,
and the use of the letters and the pentagrams.
I entered into the pyramid, and saw the sphinx. He had the head and
upper body and legs of a bull, and the rear body and tail of a lion. But his
front legs were actually arms, so that he looked a bit like a minotaur.
He responded in kind to the 5=6 signs, and added the 1=10 sign. The
image was still weak and out of focus. I tried to ask him to take me to a
place where I could see the power of the square, but the image kept
fading in and out, and I could not get the point across. I heard a voice
saying something about the "nature of the square", but I could not hear it
clearly.
Since the session did not seem to be going well, I cut it off and returned to
my astral temple. After closing the temple, I returned to my body and went
to sleep.
(I concluded later that the vision failed because I had spent much of the
afternoon considering the implications of the previous vision. I still had a
residual "charge" from that vision that had to leak off before a new force
could come in clearly.)
11/18/85
At work today, I began to get images related to the square, but they were
still weak. There was also a sensation that some kind of written or spoken
narrative was waiting for me to hear it or transcribe it. I wrote down a few
things, and most of it seemed to relate more or less to this square, but it
started to get into praises of my personal power as a magician. This type
of message always makes me suspicious, since I had had cause to regret
believing similar praise in the past.
The more coherent section of the notes began:
"I gave the 5=6 sign [to the sphinx] and he responded with the same and
added the 1=10 and 4=7 signs. He said: 'Behold, O worshiper, you have
reached the culmination of your journey. I have been formed to be your
[untranslatable thought involving receptivity to creative impulses] and as
my god are you worshiped in turn by all the elements.'"
"I questioned him about this comment but kept getting distracted by
events in the office. From several repetitions on the sphinx's part, it
seemed that he said 'You are now a creator in truth, and therefore you
have rights of control over all the elements of the four Walls of Enoch. But
I speaketh not of the Floor.'11 He seemed reluctant to say more.
"I asked the sphinx to show me a scene representative of the square. I
saw a scene of great lushness, tropical, with the heat seeming to rise from
the ground. We were in a field surrounded on three sides by jungle,
thickest to the north as we faced, thinner on the left, and changing to
savannah on the right. To the south, the savannah was burning steadily,
without smoke but with fire covering everything from about 100 yards
away to the horizon. Children or small sprites played in the thin jungle to
the west.
"The Bull led me through the trees to the north, to a clearing surrounded
by hardwood trees. The soil of the clearing was rich and loamy, and
looked as if it had just been turned for planting.
"The bull spoke and said that the earth was cleared, and ready for
whatever impulse12 I chose to put into it. I asked what sort of impulse it
had in mind, and why I should do such a thing. (A touch of paranoia
inspired by his previous comments about my privileges.)
"He explained that as a creator, I had to demonstrate my creativity by
putting a new thing into this world. My interpretation of Achad's cabala
would be such a thing. If I wished such a creation to grow and continue to
bear fruit, it must be planted as a fire in the earth.
"I asked if anything else could be planted there, and what sort of thing. He
said that anything would do, so long as it came from my own mind. He
had suggested my cabala as my most worthy creation.
"I asked how to do it and was told to plant its image in the soil. I visualized
Achad's version of the Tree of Life. With each path that I added, I tried to
put in the flavor or quality that I associated with the essence of the path.
With the Tree visualized as best I could, I concentrated the image in my
ajna center, and then threw it out from myself to enlarge and stand above
the soil.
"Saying, "May this Tree live forever, and cover all the earth with its glory.",
I caused it to sink into the soil until it was gone from sight.
"The Bull rejoiced with a glad heart."
At this point, business in the office picked up, and I had to spend the rest
of the day interviewing. I stuffed my notes away and forgot about it until
evening.
I did the invocations again beginning at 6:06 pm. I got a clear image of the
pyramid, and also a clear image of the sphinx, who seemed decidedly
bored with all these comings and goings. He nodded to me and gestured
upwards with his nose. I tested him with the pentagram and letters, which
seemed to strengthen him. But the vision did not seem to want to go any
where. So I got up and transcribed the above account of the events up to
date, and went to do a Tarot reading to see if it would shed any light on
the matter.
The reading indicated specifically that it was my resistance to the praise in
the vision that was keeping me from seeing it clearly, and that I should
throw myself into it and let the resistance come after it was over, if it had
to. The "Celtic Cross" spread was the one used, and in the position
defining the querent, it indicated a man who was disappointed because
what he had intended to be a simple teaching aid had ceased to be so.
This was so close to the mark that I had to laugh.
While I was putting the cards away, I got an image of the Egyptian
goddess who rules the square, Nepthys. She was wearing the Moon
Crown, with black and white nemyss, collar, and tunic, and she had yellow
skin.
She gestured to me and lead me into the forest to the north of the field in
which we stood. I saw that it was the same field of this afternoon's vision,
but that it was night now, and a new moon matching the real moon's
phase was in the sky. Despite being just a sliver, the vision's moon put out
enough light to see.
We traveled again to the clearing of the earlier visions. It looked the same
as I approached it, but as soon as I entered, I was covered by a thick
darkness, almost palpable. The faintest of red glows could be seen or felt
within it. Growing nervous, I intended to call upon Nepthys, but the name
that I called out was "Nuit!"13
Immediately the sky cleared and the darkness vanished. The first thing
my eyes saw was the night sky, brilliant stars in blackness, seeming to
loom down. I could feel that the sky was Nuit. A voice without words said
"Yes, my child, I, the mother of all and the end of all, come upon you. The
thick darkness that you saw, laced with faint red, is my special sign to you,
with the feeling of my presence that it gives. You saw it once before when
you emerged from the Tree [in The Beast and the Star]."
The sky loomed yet nearer, and in some way the dimensions twisted, so
that the earth and myself interpenetrated with the field of stars. We
seemed to be parsecs across, but at the same time we retained our
normal small size on the cosmic scale.
I felt myself being drawn into the field of stars, changing my shape to the
basic sphere, whose simple elegance rules in the macrocosm. My earthly
self was partially shed, so that I was touched at a deeper level by the
scene.
I noted that in some way the spirit of the earth had been drawn up with
me, and was itself become as a star in that sky. She appeared first as I
usually see her from space, blue and brown clothed in white, then I saw
her on the astral level, shrouded in a cloud of noxious gases, only a few of
which are material in nature. Then I saw her transformed, glowing brightly
enough to outshine all else around her.
(Throughout all this, I had simultaneously been seeing the earth as a
planet and as a woman. In woman-phase, she appeared first as a mother
about 25 years old, fully mature in body and young in outlook. The
correspondence to the miasma-image was a woman who had been
burdened with the karma of millions through no fault of her own. In her
transformation, she shed the dark, murky stew of emotions in which she
had been clothed, She appeared young and bright, but with a knowledge
so deep that it had made her innocent again.
I marveled at the beauty of this young woman, though I can not describe it
at all now beyond saying that she seemed to be all things at once. And
even more I marveled that I was connected to her in some way that made
me feel married. On thinking about this, it seemed reasonable. Earth
certainly knows at least as much about me as a wife does about her
husband. And, reversing it, my own knowledge of her, so very much less,
was about equal to the average husband's knowledge of his wife. The
connection between us felt very good, with an undercurrent of love given
unconditionally. Love fairly shone from her and blinded me until I turned
away.)
Nuit said, again without words, "This shall regenerate the world, the little
world my sister, my heart & my tongue, unto whom I send this kiss."14
I was then sent a burst of information, and it took a while to untangle it all.
It was the success of myself and my fellow magicians that "regenerated"
the world. Every time one human being became fully aware of his/her
star-ness, it raised the spiritual level of the being that enlivened the earth
as well.
In incarnating as the earth, this being had deliberately cut herself off from
communion with her fellows among the stars. She had voluntarily "entered
a prison of the flesh" in order to set the conditions necessary for her own
next initiation. In doing so, she had also made herself the garbage dump
for all the negative emotional matter in this sector of space.
Receiving all this emotional matter served dual purposes. In relation to the
earth herself, it enabled her to perform a "service" for her "community",
loosely speaking, while at the same time undergoing a trial necessary to
her advancement. The act was a service because it gave certain other
stellar beings in the neighborhood, notably the star Set (Sirius or Sothis),
a clean environment in which to undergo his next initiation, and to perform
certain other magickal tasks.
Now, to get out of this condition, it is necessary for the earth to have a
certain number of fully conscious beings living in her, who are aware of
their place in the larger cosmos. When these beings throw their
consciousness outside the earth's aura, they punch holes in the blanket of
emotional matter surrounding the earth. These holes continue to expand
so long as the person maintains some connection within the earth's
sphere. Each hole allows energy and information from the outside to get
back to the earth's Life. Thus, she gains strength she needs to disperse
the cloud, and material of the proper grade for her own growth.
And since each adept's consciousness is reflected in her own, the
increased vibrations of the adept's awareness also raises her own state of
consciousness slightly, further helping her to regain her lost state.
When the needed number of adepts are fully linked into the outer
universe, then the earth can use their paths as a route to send her whole
awareness out. From outside the material aura of the planet, she can take
direct action to disperse the emotional miasma, and those beings who live
on earth because of it. With the Air again clear, then balance will be
restored to the relations between the kingdoms on earth, and man will find
his place as its caretaker.
Thus, the initiations of individuals do good to the earth simply by having
happened. Their continued existence on earth continues the good, so
long as their knowledge of their place as stars in the womb of Nuit also
continues. They need do nothing else but pursue their own wills. This is
why it is a lie that sacrifice is necessary to initiation, and a lie that the
initiated have a duty to spread their knowledge.
Nuit bent down and enveloped myself and the earth in an embrace that
was inside us as well as about us. It definitely felt like a kiss despite
enclosing us completely. Then I returned to the clearing where we started,
and the earth spirit went back into her body.
I looked about the clearing and wondered if I should close the vision or
continue. A voice told me to wait a moment. I took the opportunity to go to
the bathroom. It had taken a while to sort out what that burst of
information had in it, and it was now 8:10 pm. I am certain that I have
forgotten a lot of what was in the burst. For a while, ideas had gone by so
fast that they were replaced by another before the could be absorbed.
I returned to the clearing. It was still and quiet. The moon seemed to have
gone lower in the western sky, and there was not as much light. What little
there was faded quickly, leaving me again in full darkness.
I heard: "You have invoked the powers of the fire of earth. And as we
have told you, we have given to you in full measure. For is not the being
who is the life of Earth ultimately the true fire of earth? Did she not inject
herself into the body of earth as in the square "T", cutting herself off from
her kind in order to bring life to the world? And did not her life disperse
throughout the earth, as in the square "M", feeding every living creature,
maintaining order of types and functions among them? And did not you,
her creature, under the pressure of her life, become transformed from an
amorphous lump into a Star? And is this not the reward of all the adepts
upon her? And did you not see yourself, a Star of fire15, married to her
within my field? And is not the heart of your soul, your own creation, now
buried in her to grow and reproduce? Thus ye have made her the Bride,
and IHVH is fulfilled within the Fiery Lesser Angle."
Abruptly, the vision ended, and all sense of connection was gone. I went
and finished this account of the vision, which I end here at 10:10pm.
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Notes and comments: (1985)
When I started this series of astral visions, it was only with the thought of
doing something interesting with some unexpected free time. Square "T"
was picked on a moment's impulse. It was only after the vision that I
thought about invoking the other squares in the series.
The experience of the first vision brought to mind one of the things that
has annoyed me about published accounts of the Enochian squares. That
is, these accounts all seemed haphazard. Squares were picked at
random, and no effort was made to show the squares in their relation to
the rest of the Tablet. While this might be satisfactory for demonstrating
astral projection techniques, it did not do justice to the complexity or
quality of the system. I decided to do a series of projections for related
squares of one of the Tablets. The one I had just done seemed an ideal
starting point.
All the squares in this series are what is known as "kerubic" squares.
There are four in each of the lesser angles of each tablet, and they direct
the operations of the sixteen subservient squares of the Angle. Their
position and function make them an embodiment of the overall powers of
the Angle.
The formula of IHVH determines most of the attributions in the tablets.
Each of the kerubic squares is related to one letter of IHVH, as their name
implies. Since each Lesser Angle and each Tablet is also related to one of
the letters, we have three levels of interaction with the name. So under
this system, the square "T" represents Fire of Fire of Earth, square "M" is
Water of Fire of Earth, and so on. This symbolism is fairly clear in the
visions.
By the time I started on the square "M", I had a whole plan lined out for
doing the visions, analyzing the symbolism, and showing the interrelations
between them. Nothing more was expected of the visions than a more-or-
less formal presentation of symbolic correspondences, and their relation
to everyday events and objects. This was all I had gotten out of the
system up till then, and there seemed no reason to expect anything
different.
After the second vision, this was still my intent. But after the first of the
invocations for the square "S", I began to get feelings that things were
getting out of hand. There was an impression that someone had co-opted
my little project and that I was no longer in control of it. This is to be
expected when a higher force is invoked, but the Elemental Tablets had
always seemed to relate to the forces operating in the mundane world,
which are normally under the magician's control.
The manner in which the vision of square "S" occurred verified that
something more than my own will was involved in creating the vision.
First, much of it occurred without my normal consciousness being
involved. It appears that my magickal self was isolated from my mundane
persona for the vision, and the persona only remembered it after the fact.
Second, the events of the vision occurred in a way that defies normal
concepts of experiential time. Certain sections are remembered as having
happened one at a time, and yet they are also remembered as happening
simultaneously. I had experienced this effect before, but not in cases
involving such a large amount of information.
The twisted-time effect was even more pronounced in square "I". The
vision occurred in a way that was not at all serial. Instead, it appeared as
a complete creation in four dimensions, and was only translated into a
serial-time mode after the fact.
I would like to point out that the visions continued to follow the attributions
of the squares invoked despite the change of approach and scope in the
latter two visions. Beyond this, they speak for themselves.
You may have noticed that the starting and stopping times of the visions
include a large number of symmetric numbers. This was not deliberate.
My unconscious is attracted to these numbers, and frequently arranges
events in this way. There is no particular occult meaning involved.
11/22/85
While doing the hexagram ritual before going to bed last night, I had the
vision described below, which was supplemented by additional data given
the next day. It is written as one narrative.
I had been thinking about the multiple simultaneous presentations in the
last two visions from the fiery lesser angle.
I saw two of the visions as they were presented at the time, and saw the
manner in which they paralleled each other in three or four dimensions.
Suddenly I perceived that these were only two of an infinite number of
possible presentations that could have been shown. There were
additional visions parallel to the first two stretching off in every direction.
As the visions got farther away, the images they presented changed, but
the basic energy remained the same.
I had some thoughts about the characteristics of the astral plane that I can
not recall now. Something about the plane being so protean or flexible
that it would accurately reflect any force, but in a symbolic form. Also
about how these multiple visions relate to the same force acting in
different circumstances.
I saw that the energetic pattern of a particular square was infinitely sub-
dividable, with the same pattern appearing at whatever level of fineness
one chose to look at it. But again, though the force was the same, the
manifestation would differ.
The energies are in fact infinitely recursive. Smaller levels reflect patterns
of larger levels, and vice versa. Like the way that gross shapes of crystals
reflect the internal arrangement of their molecules. I saw that any
particular vision of a square was like the viewpoint from a particular
molecule within the crystal's matrix. The exact form of the vision is
determined not only by the type of energy, but also by the vision's place
within the matrix of all possible visions.
This confused me. Since the matrix is infinite, there should be no
identifiable differences in the forces acting on any point within the matrix.
I was told that the matrix for any particular square was infinite. But the
square interacted with the energies of all the other squares in ways that
were not uniform from point to point. If the current square was "T" of the
fiery lesser angle of earth, the energies of an adjacent square such as
square "M" might appear at one point in "T" to come from an angle of 270
degrees, while from a different point it might appear to come from 265
degrees. As with astrology, the surround determines the effect at any
point.
Later that night, I also saw a vision of the Tablets, connected in such a
way that they formed the walls of a room. The tablet of spirit was the floor,
and another unidentified tablet was the ceiling. It formed a square box
with the squares of the tablets facing inward.
The viewpoint withdrew from the box thus made, and I saw that lines of
light extended at right angles from each face of the box. The viewpoint
retreated further, and I saw that the box was connected to six other
boxes. Each of these was in turn connected to six boxes, and so on in a
cubic matrix that extended into the distance on all sides.
I could see that each box was composed of Tablets as was my own, but
that each box had a different arrangement of forces. Each box had only
slight differences from the boxes connected to it. The differences between
systems became greater as the distance between them in the matrix
increased.
The changes from box to box were regular, as if any group of seven
connected boxes were notes in one key. Depending on the direction in
which one moved, a different note of the chord became the dominant note
of the next chord. A similar analogy to the spectrum could be made.
I asked whether each of these boxes was a separate universe, or just a
separate viewpoint within the walls of my own tablet. The answer was that
the former was the case. Each was a related universe within a larger level
of creation. our own universe was one of many within an expanded artistic
theme being played out in a larger frame of reference.
I also saw that by orienting on a set of axes other than those I was looking
at, a whole new matrix was revealed, with different but intersecting rules.
Continuing this rotation revealed that these too were infinite in number.
I was told that it was possible for the adept who did not like his own world,
or who simply wanted to explore, to move from universe to universe within
any of the matrices. In few of these universes would he find himself in a
physical world. because such schemes are rare in the larger cosmos. But
wherever he did find such a universe, he would always arrive in a place
as congruent as possible with his departure point. Thus he could be
reasonably assured that he would survive such a trip. In the other worlds,
only his magickal body would go, leaving his physical body behind.
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11/22/85
A little after seven, I did a banishing, and invoked the powers of the
square "R" of the watery lesser angle of the Earth tablet. I did not get any
images after I visualized the pyramid, other than a blurred vision of the
sphinx. There was a sense of the presence of the force, but nothing too
strong came through.
I will do the invocation again before going to bed.
(Ended up not doing so. -BR)
11/26/85
This afternoon, I began to get glimmerings of some sort of vision. I was
situated (in the vision) above the earth tablet, around the northeast
corner. I could see the squares of the tablet, with the letters written in for
the four kerubic squares in enochian. The word "Raph" came to mind. It is
the name of the angel of the square "R". This square represents Yod of
Water of Earth.
5:15 pm approx
Did the invocation of water of earth, and called upon the names, ending
with NphRa and NRaph, the first governing the kerubic squares of the
angle as a whole, and the second the special version governing the
square.
I saw the pyramid, with black to the north with the earth sigil engraved.
Blue was to the south, blazoned with the sigil of water. East was red with
the Leo sign, west red with the Yod.
I entered the pyramid, but did not see the sphinx there. So I rose up
through the planes until I came to a reasonably clear scene. This was like
the initial image of the square "i" of the fiery lesser Angle, except that a
lake came up to the south, and the jungle to the east and west was more
lush.
It was told that I had come back to this slightly modified scene to indicate
that after the energies of square "i" pass out of that square, they come to
this one. They go from Heh final of fire of earth to Yod of water of earth.
Then I rose up again and saw the pyramid from above. The forces of the
sides, rather than being held back from the top all blended together on the
truncated top of the pyramid.
Then I saw a true scene of the square. I was in the center of a region of
hot springs and geysers. The hot springs were small-diameter but deep
pots, worn into solid rock. Steam wafted up gently from them. (It looked a
lot like the Plain of Holes in Sgt. Pepper.) The heat was concentrated in
these holes, and it was relatively cool elsewhere. (Something similar was
described in Dante's Inferno.)16
I invoked the angel again. The angel that appeared had the same dark
skin and light hair of the angels of the previous angle, but his clothes had
a subtle blue sheen to them. The clothes had a sort of flowing motion, as
if they were caught in some invisible current. The angel wore a pantacle
of earth about his neck on a chain, and held a cup extended downward as
if in the act of pouring. The right hand held a wand forward on the center
line of his body, with the hand at the level of the solar plexus.
Since the angel had changed his aspect a bit from his first appearance, I
tested again with the signs. He did not respond, but held his pose. The
pentagrams neither helped nor diminished him, but did make the image
sharper. The letters caused him to expand.
I asked to see the sphinx, but he instead indicated that I should perform
the sign in which he was standing. I did so, and he changed to a sign in
which the arms were held forward from the shoulders, with the elbows
bowed outwards so that the arms formed a horizontal circle. The wand
and the cup were held upright before the body. I imitated this sign.
Next he changed to a sign which was like that of Osiris Risen save that
the arms were held away from the body. The wand and cup were held so
that the point of the wand touched the rim of the cup above the hands.
I asked, "What is the purpose of these signs?"
The angel said that the signs represented the three alchemical elements,
sulphur, salt and mercury, as they manifest in this square. The last of the
signs was Mercury, since it imitated the caduceus.17 The middle one was
salt, imitating the pantacle. The first was sulphur, with the active wand
above the passive cup.
Also, in the first sign the water is discarded and the fire raised. In the
second they are balanced in opposite rotation, producing stability through
spin. In the last, they intermix, as mercury intermixes sulphur and salt.
I said this was all very well, but what did it have to do with the point of the
vision. He said "We are very concerned with forms and formula here."
The vision petered out at that point, so I returned to my body and
reabsorbed the forces.
7:55 pm
Returned to the vision through the pyramid.
Asked to see the effect of the square in the mineral kingdom. Was shown
the same geyser and hot springs area. Went below the surface, and saw
the forces generated by the earth's pressure heating the ground water,
and causing it to expand and come out on the surface of the earth. It
particularly rules those springs that well up out of the earth underneath
the ocean, where the tectonic plates meet.
In the plant kingdom, this square rules the process in which water
evaporates from the leaves due to the heat of the sunlight. As the water
evaporates, it pulls more water from the earth to replace it. The water
carries nutrients up from the roots to the growing areas of the plant.
In the animal kingdom, the square controls the distribution of heat from
the intestines to the rest of the body via the blood. No particular species of
animal was suggested as an embodiment of the square's force.
I asked for the type of person represented by the square, but I could not
see it clearly. I concluded that I was too tired from driving all day to get
much tonight.18
11/27/85
A vision of square "m" of the Watery Lesser Angle of the Water Tablet.
At 10:52 am, I did a Tarot reading to discover why I was having so much
trouble getting an image from the squares mentioned above. The cards
indicated that I would have better results if I changed direction and
invoked water of water of water, square "m" of the watery lesser angle of
the water tablet.
I recited the key and the names. The pyramid appeared, with all four sides
flashing and rippling in the colors of water. Each side held the Enochian
sigil of water, the cross with 4-g-6-g in the angles, within a circular
background in the flashing color, orange. The ripples in the sides were
coordinated so that all sides rippled at the same time, the waves travelling
from the bottom of the pyramid to the top. I got the impression that the
pyramid was a vagina, and each set of ripples was like a mild orgasm,
their motion encouraging the male to release his load of power into
pyramid. There was nothing demanding about this encouragement, yet
there was an impression that it could not be gainsaid.19
There was a very light and clean feeling to the square, which intensified
as I waited in the pyramid. The sphinx appeared, a pure Eagle as is
appropriate to the square. I gave the 5=6 signs, which he responded to in
kind.
I asked to see a landscape that represented the power of the square.
There was shown a whirlpool in the sea, with all the waters entering from
the sides blending together and pulling things downwards into the cup-
shaped whirl. The side of the whirlpool had the enochian sigil of water
imprinted on it. The sigil was undisturbed by the movement of the waters
on which it was stamped.
I called upon the angel of the square, mtdi, again. She appeared, showing
herself as a woman in diaphanous blue veils, fully covering her body and
arms, save when she gestured. Her face and skin were blue in color, with
orange highlights and shadows.
She said:
"Know, O worshipper, that here in the watery lesser angle of the water
tablet are the pure waters of preservation held. Thus Jupiter is the angle
of water in the Tree, for it preserves that which is built by the angle of fire,
which is Mars in the Tree.20
"Isis, our goddess, is the creator and preserver of the forms. She takes
the impulse of the gods, and transforms it into herself, reflecting the initial
impulse in a manner which continues to reverberate through her
substance. She is the Wave, where fire is the Quantum. She takes the
impulse and reproduces it many times over. Thus where the original
impulse was singular, its effect is multiplied and distributed here. You saw
some of this in the square "m" of the fiery lesser angle of earth, which is
also of water within its own area of action.
"As well as multiplying the force, water causes it to be sustained over
time. Though the impulse is momentary, its ripples continue to be
reflected in the movement of the water. Thus she preserves it.
"Water is the reflection of the mass action of many quanta. While their
true nature in themselves may be of fire, their action as a multitude is of
the nature of water. For are not the waves made of the quanta, yet do
they wave despite this."
I then saw a multitude of impulses, little photon-like particles, milling about
in a space. Each particle moved along its own course, and seemed to act
independently of any other, yet when the actions of all the particles were
seen at once, there were larger-scale motions that were clearly wave-like
and orderly travelling through the soup of particles.
"Yea, the particles are truly Osiris, torn to pieces by the anger of Set. Yet
Isis has gathered the pieces together to make a new Osiris, greater than
the one who came before, for he is expanded and diversified, both more
detailed and broader in his scope." (That is, each particle reflects the
original impulse, and acts in accord with that impulse's nature, yet also
acts as one component within a larger creation, which will also reflect the
power of the original impulse when it is fully manifested.)
I asked to see how this power works out in the mineral kingdom. The
angel told me that the power works equally in all kingdoms, that it is a
general principle. All things reflect its action. Its power in general is given
to the females, though males are equally capable of understanding it once
their conditioning is removed.
However, within the mineral kingdom, it might be said in part that this
power is reflected in the process by which a small amount of radioactive
substance, put in contact with another substance which is not radioactive,
changes the latter substance into more of itself. This is the principle of the
"breeder" reactor. (It is the "reproduction" of the original matter which is
represented here, not the specific impulse which causes the change to
take place.)
The action of natural water as a solvent is also of this square, for it takes
the quanta (in this case, the atoms) of the material, and distributes them
throughout itself, taking on something of the quality of the thing dissolved.
In the plant kingdom, this power rules all water-plants, and all those plants
that use water-borne pollen as the intermediary between the male and
female plants, as well as those that use water to transport the resulting
seeds.
In the animal kingdom, sea-mammals such as porpoises and dolphins,
and the manatee, are ruled by this square and by water generally.
I asked to see the type of person represented by the square. I was shown
a woman in the act of opening herself fully and without reservation to a
male for purposes of reproduction. It was emphasized that the emotional
state, rather than the act, was the important thing.
The angel told me that the difference between quantum-like and wave-like
phenomena in physics exactly reflects the differences between Fire and
Water in the Enochian system. Quantum phenomena, like Fire, deal with
the actions of individual particles. When physicists look at a particle, they
can not tell exactly what it is doing at any given time. Its movements and
changes randomly select among the possibilities open to it by its nature.
Its actions are discontinuous, changing instantly from one state to
another, with no transition between.
But when the particles are observed in large groups, they act in an orderly
way. Their individually discontinuous actions taken together produce
phenomena that are seemingly continuous. The atoms of mundane water
are made up of such particles, yet their discontinuity does not prevent a
wave from moving across the surface of a pond. The wave phenomena
are a new order of event, superimposed on and encompassing the
original natures of the fiery impulses.
I ended the vision and closed the astral temple.
11/29/85
For the last two days I have been trying to get more out of the squares via
repeated invocations. While there has certainly been a perceptible effect
from these invocations, I can not seem to get any kind of reliable vision
out of the invoked energies.
I attempted to invoke the square "t", yod of water of water, and got just an
image of a raging tempest, with water thrashing about in all directions.
There was also a hint of Leviathan lying just below the surface. Other than
that, nothing.
In general, the invocations have resulted in a filling out of my aura with
watery force. I can see the blue of it filtering everything I look at even right
now, twenty hours after the last invocation. There has also been a general
attraction to things watery. I have taken several more showers than I
usually do in this amount of time, just for the pleasure of it.
There have also been some scraps of vision relating to woman-as-water,
but there seems to be some kind of interference that is keeping me from
perceiving them fully. Probably just the quality of my mind at present.
The tarot indicates that the main effect of these invocations has been at
an unconscious level, and not open to my mundane awareness.
Other scraps I have picked up:
1. An indication that I should be looking again at the fiery lesser angle of
earth, rather than continuing with the water angle and tablet. I'll do an I
Ching and tarot reading to check this out tonight.
2. There is a possibility that the tablets can be used in some way as a
form of divination. If the individual forces could be understood easily, then
I could see how this might be useful. There are certainly enough different
forces in the system to comprise a reasonably inclusive form of
symbolism.
I also wonder if the squares might be used to make up a language of
symbolism in which stories or facts could be given. This is something
slightly different than using the angelic language in which the keys or calls
are written. Each square would be one root-word or root-symbol, which
could then be modified by the presence of other root-symbols to produce
specific concepts. Something like a universal translation key.
(I don't know whether these two points come in some way as the result of
the invocation, or are just wish-fulfillments.)
3. Additionally, there have been some fantasy images of extreme
psychological and physical conditioning being used to make a woman as
receptive and water-like as possible. I take these as a degeneration of the
action of the forces, acting on some of my suppressed and not-so-
suppressed feelings about women.21
12/1/85
Another vision of the square "R" of the Watery Lesser Angle of Earth.
I invoked the watery lesser angle of the earth tablet, and called upon the
names, MOR DIAL HCTGA, ICZHIKAL, ANAEEM, SONDN, RAPH.
The pyramid appeared, with the north side glowing black with the earth
sign in white, the south glowing blue with the water sign in orange, the
east and west glowing red with the signs of the lion-kerub and the Yod,
respectively, in green. I entered into the pyramid.
The sphinx appeared. He had the head of a bull, the body of a lion, and
the hind legs and tail of the eagle. I performed the 5=6 signs, he
responded with the Rending of the Veil sign, followed by the signs of
Earth, Water, and Fire, followed by the Closing of the Veil sign.
I called upon the god of the square, Ameshet, and saw him with orange
face, blue nemyss, and black, yellow, and orange stripes on his
shoulders. I did the 5=6 signs with him, and tested him with the
pentagrams. Instead of the pentagrams having an effect on him, I
suddenly found my own consciousness united with that of the god, so that
I could see myself across the floor of the pyramid, wearing a black robe
with blue lining and red pockets and edges. The pentagram hanging in the
air between us glowed, filling the god with force, which he absorbed
without difficulty.
I spent a few minutes concentrating on the consciousness of the god. His
force seemed to satisfy the conditions of the square. I could sense the
slow solidity or stability of Earth, spread uniformly throughout his being by
the waters, with the fires bringing a sense of power or rulership to him. I
saw that as he looked at me across the floor of the pyramind that he
approved of my efforts to gather visions of these squares.
Ameshet said: "Know, o innocent, that you have come here for
knowledge, and knowledge shall you get in full measure, if you be patient
enough.
"Here in the watery lesser angle of the earth tablet, we take the forces of
life that have been injected into the earth, and allowed to grow on its
surface, and we give these lives forms and functions within the world to
which they have been assigned. There is nothing in the original impulse
that determines the way in which it will manifest in the world, out of the
multitude of possible manifestations. For, even in the earth, the fire is
formless. We provide the environment by which the energy obtains its
context, thereby forcing it into a form which is suitable through its will-to-
be.
I asked to see the action of this square, "R", in the mineral kingdom. I was
shown a place deep under the earth, in which elements were dissolved
from the earth by the action of hot water, whose heat in turn was derived
from the pressure of the earth. As the solutions became saturated, the
elements tended to precipitate from the water, forming crystals of pure
substance.
I saw that the waters that did the dissolving were encapsulated, just as
the fires of Yod of Fire of Earth had been. These pockets formed where
bubbles had existed in the magma when this section of the earth had
cooled below melting temperature. The water precipitated into the pockets
due to its lower heat retention.
Because we were deep below the earth, the pressure of the earth above
produced the heat. This fire caused molecules of the rock to be more
easily dissolved by the water, and caused the water to become a more
effective solvent.
Eventually, the water could not hold any more dissolved minerals, and the
action of the fire was lessened. The minerals began to precipitate out of
the solution onto the walls of the capsule. But only those elements that
could be solids at the existing temperature precipitated. These pure or
nearly pure elements formed crystals and lattices on the insides of the
capsules. The result of this process was pockets of pure minerals or
gemstones, or geodes.
I asked to see the effect of this square in the plant kingdom. I was shown
a seed buried in the earth. The waters from the melting of the winter
snows washed a protective covering off of the seed, signalling the seed
that it was time for it to break its shell.
A representation of the force in the animal kingdom was shown, but I
could not see it clearly.
In the human kingdom, this square governs changes of life-direction that
occur suddenly after a long period of buildup where the impending change
was not apparent. One example of this is the male "mid-life crisis". The
sudden thrusting-out of a child from the woman at parturition is also
governed in part by this square, although there are multiple aspects to this
process that are governed by other squares.
I asked to see the spiritual animal governed by the square. I was shown
an animal that had an extremely round body, with flipper-like limbs and
short, stubby legs. It does little except sit while it grows slowly larger. But
at the same time I got an image that this animal thinks of itself as a big,
impressive monster. (I got the impression that the animal was like a
rockbound version of the puffer fish, which blows itself up with water in
order to scare enemies.)
I asked to be returned to the pyramid, and this was done. I stood there for
a moment, absorbing the force of the square, and then turned to Ameshet
again.
He said: "Know, o worshipper, that here we have given you the
beginnings of the wisdom of water of earth, but that there is much yet
here to see in these squares Kerubic of the Angle. Let this student return
to the angle in the next few hours, going this time to the square of Heh of
Water of Fire, there to continue the quest. Do you come again within the
day, and we will see much more. For now, return to your body fully, and
think of something else for a while. You might also review your prior vision
of this square to see any connections between them."
I left the pyramid and came out into my astral temple. From there, I
banished the square and closed the temple.
12/1/85 5:56 pm
In invoked the forces of the lesser angle, using the names MOR DIAL
HCTGA, ICZHIKAL, CABALPT, ANAEEM, APHR. Visualized the pyramid,
with the north side black with white earth-symbol, south blue with orange
water-symbol, east blue with orange eagle and water-symbol, west blue
with orange Heh and water-symbol.
Entered into the pyramid, and saw the sphinx. The sphinx was bull-
headed, with a blue and orange nemyss. The body, legs and tail were that
of the eagle.
I called upon the goddess of the square, Isis. She appeared, wearing a
blue uraeus crown, blue skirt with orange chest-straps, carrying a lotus
wand. Her skin was yellow. I did the 5=6 signs. She answered with the
Rending of the Veil, the earth and water signs, and the Closing of the Veil.
I tested her with the pentagrams, and as in the previous vision, my
consciousness entered into that of the Goddess. As her, I saw myself
across the pyramid, drawing the pentagram of earth. As the goddess I
absorbed its force and grew bigger. I saw myself draw the water
pentagram, and grew even larger.
Isis looked at me and saw that I was visiting to gain information. She said:
"It is a wise son who knows his mother's advice." At my request, she
showed me the sphinx of her power. It was like unto the original sphinx of
the square, save that its body was that of a scorpion rather than of an
eagle. By this, she said, she meant to emphasize that the waters not only
related to the products of life, but also of the end- or death-products of the
earth's system.
She showed me the waters flowing through underground caverns,
carrying dissolved minerals from one place to another within the earth,
causing internal formations such as limestone caves to appear. The water
takes itself into every crack and cranny in the earth distributing its load.
The minerals thus distributed contributed to the health of the plants that
draw their sustenance from the earth.
Above the earth, the action of the square represents the erosion of the
stone of the heights of Earth, and its transport by the water to the
lowlands, where it becomes rich growing land. The more poisonous
effluents continue in dissolved condition until the water reaches the sea,
where they are distributed in less than lethal concentrations throughout
the ocean. The saltiness of the sea results from the power of this square,
though once in the sea it becomes the earth of water instead.
Asked to show its effects on humans, Isis showed me a mother nursing
her child. The substance of her milk is the water of earth. A person taking
on arduous or unpleasant jobs for the sake of others was also shown. In
the mind of man, she said, the effect is to produce those emotions related
to the physical welfare of the family unit.
I asked to see the effect in the animal kingdom. I was shown a dog
reacting to its owner's commands with complete submission. Isis
explained that the dog's emotions, his water-nature, had been reoriented
so that he perceived his master as his pack-leader. The submissive
responses of subordinate pack-animals is generally ruled by this square.
Isis said: "Know ye, O man, that here in the watery lesser angle [of earth]
do the forces of earth concentrate their poisons for elimination, even as
they distribute the wealth of the earth to the places of need. Thus the
scorpion is also part of the sphinx here. The products of the degeneration
of living matter that can not be reabsorbed by the system are taken by the
water to a place where they can not be of danger. Yet man does tax them
greatly in this time, by his creations out of the earth, and the force of the
square is weakened by its failure. Thus does man fill up his world with his
own source of Death.
"While yet the time remains until the end of things, when the earth and all
upon her are raised up beyond the material, so shall this square continue
to work for the cleanliness and health of the world. Pray ye that the end
come soon, so that the earth may pass in beauty and not in squalor of its
children's devising.
"Go ye now unto the ends of the earth, and preach this message: Keep ye
the earth clean, and it shall reward ye an hundredfold with life more
abundant yet. Yet this also applies to thee in thine own person. Cleanse
ye of the poisons of thy mundane life, and here we will give ye more than
man ever yet received of us."
I acknowledged the necessity of this, since certain habits, such as
smoking cigarettes, were proving to be keeping me from complete
success in some aspects of the magickal work. I waited to see if Isis
would continue.
She did, showing me a scene of people all seated in a church, with a
bride and groom at the altar waiting to be married. The man was myself,
the woman's feature could not be seen due to her veils.
Isis said: "Know ye that she who would be thy mate longs to approach
thee, yet she fears of ye because of thine aspect of death. Reduce this
aspect as ye have done, and bring in the balances of rightness. The
cleansing of the body must be one part of this, for the scorpion hath had
ye for thine whole life, and now his effluvia must be washed away to
reveal the emerald jewels he has perfected in his compost. Clean ye thine
house as well, taking from it the residue of thy habits. Then shall ye feel
free, and so will she, to join together."22
I asked Isis whether there was anything else to be said at this time. She
indicated that there was, but that I should wait a few moments, get
something to drink, and return. I did this.
Isis said: "Now that we have told ye of what we desire of ye, there is yet
one more thing to say at this time. Know ye that ye are the chosen priest
and apostle of the Gods of Liber Al for the coming few years. That ye
reject this is known and considered, but ye shall have no choice in the
matter, no more than the prior two who have helped them so well, the one
known, the other not, yet both of the highest degree of our confidence. Ye
shall continue to reject all who try to assign you to a place or space within
their organization, for it is the truth of the book that ye shall do what Thou
wilt, not as others shall say. All their signs and symbols are corrupted with
their humanness, and have lost their effectiveness in the pursuit of the
gods' goals. Follow thine own path, and ye shall be rewarded as ye have
seen.
"Ye wonder whether there shall be a sign of this event, whether ye shall
have to proclaim thyself the Beast, and take on the aspects of power over
others. This I say to ye as a solemn promise: That power shall not corrupt
thee. Take ye the course that is opened to ye, and all shall be well. Let it
be so.
"Of proclaiming yourself the Beast, I say that ye have already done so.
Did ye not select this name as thine own in thy battles with the Christians?
So it is and so shall it be.
"Of the signs I speak not, save to say that ye shall see that which shall
convince ye of the truth of what we speak beyond any ability to doubt.
Look ye not for such a sign.23
"Continue to explore these squares of earth and water in the next few
days. What comes will be useful and educational, both to ye and to those
who read thine accounts.
"This vision is ended."
I then returned to my temple, did a quick banishing of the forces, and
returned fully to my body.
12/3/85
Last night, invoked the square "p" of the watery lesser angle around 9:15
pm. Got a clear image of the pyramid, but the vision did not want to go
any further.
After several minutes of rising on planes and tearing the veils, I got an
image of the square.
I was somewhere on the face of a cliff. Below me I could see a raging
river in a narrow canyon. From the top of the cliff, a waterfall poured. But
before the water could reach the river below, it was torn into spray by the
wind.
I went down to the level of the river, and saw that the air above it was
filled with little bits of water. The bits were too large to be called mist, and
too small to be called drizzle. They were exactly the maximum size
droplet that could be suspended in air indefinitely.
This is about all I could get. I never saw the sphinx or the God of the
square, and never saw any other beings in the vision. I gave up and
returned to my body.
Afterwards, I noticed that the pyramid had actually formulated itself in
etheric matter in my bedroom. It was large enough to completely contain
the queen-sized bed. When I got up to go to the bathroom, I saw in the
mirror that the pyramid had also formulated itself in my own aura. I could
see in the mirror that the top side of the square, colored black, covered
my head and my neck to the shoulders. From my neck to just below the
navel, the aura had expaning wings of yellow fanning out to both sides.
From the navel down, the aura was the blue of the lowest of the four
sides.
I returned to the bed and saw that the pyramid was still there as well. It
persisted until after I had fallen asleep. There is still some faint image of it
visible even now, 22 hours later. I am about to do the invocation again,
and will add to this account afterwards.
(Astrological note -- Currently Uranus is transiting in a tetranovile aspect
to my moon, and just came into orb of a conjunction with my sun. This
may have the effect of aborting any astral visions for the duration of the
transits, since most of my visionary ability depends on these two planets,
particularly the sun. If so, the remaining invocations may have to wait until
the aspect passes in January. I intend to try at least three more times to
get a vision of this square. If I am unable to do so after that many
invocations, it would seem approriate to delay the remaining work. But
somehow I sense that it would be a mistake to do so.)
12/3/85 9:15 pm.
The vision opened with the pyramid in the magickal circle of my astral
temple. The sides were all of the appropriate colors with the correct
symbols upon them. I repeated the names of invocation a couple of times
more, then entered the pyramid.
There I saw the sphinx, who had the head of a longhorn bull, the body of
a man, with the hips, legs and tail of the eagle. I did the 5=6 signs, he
responded in kind and added the earth, water, and air signs.
The sphinx indicated that tonight's vision would be less of a vision than a
dictation in the style of my usual communications with disincarnate
humans. That is, through a sort of "automatic typing". I went to my office
and set up my word-processor. I then returned my astral vision to the
scene in the pyramid.
I asked to see a vision of the square's function. I was taken to the same
stream-canyon with which last night's vision ended, and there I saw the
valley from above. It was night, and all the droplets of water I had seen
hanging above the stream were shown to be glowing in the dark. They
looked like a river of stars from my vantage point, shining brightly as they
flowed down the canyon.
I called upon the sphinx to explain the vision. He said:
"Know ye, o student, that in this place are the waters of earth distributed
to the ends of creation. The natural tendency of the water is to flow to the
lowest point within the earth, as is shown by its being in the bottom of the
canyon here. But the winds of the quarter whip up a froth from the waves,
so that as fast as it flows downward, it is blown upward again.
"Now the waters do desire to spread themselves througout the earth, but
on their own they are confined to the areas where the earth opens to
them. Thus, the assistance of the air in called upon.
"In the natural world, this square rules those waters taken up into the air
in cyclones, hurricanes, and strong winds, which are carried to places
where the water could not otherwise go upon the earth.
"In the spiritual world, this square rules those lives of men who desire to
be raised up from their mundane place, but lack the strength of ambition
or determination to do so fully on their own. If the spirit of the man seeks
ever upwards, then is the spirit lightened somewhat from the weight of its
mundane experiences. Thus the winds of Aleph can lift them up from the
earth into the lower heavens of Yesod.24 From there, if they are ever
desirous, they can absorb enough of the spirit-stuff to keep themselves
afloat in the heavens, as the droplets of water, while heavy in themselves,
are borne up by the winds of the square. Thus, the droplets in the vision
here are glowing with the increased force which holds them above the
waters from which they came, as the spirit of man is lightened by its
aspiration. There is more to say on this in the next square, which is earth
of water of earth. We will show you that at the proper time.
"For now, let us continue with the current square. Within the field of the
plant life, this square rules all plants that live in the water, yet spread their
seeds through the air.
"The best example of this is the cattail of the northern climes. It lives not in
the pure waters of lakes and streams, but in the water-saturated grounds
of bogs, culverts and ditches. It takes the waters of the earth in those
places, and raises them up into the air by the length of its stalk. There it
combines the water with the air, as all plants do, to produce the substance
of the seeds which are its "tail". The seeds hold the water in place above
the earth until they are ripe and ready to be sent to new places. Then the
seeds release their water to the air, transforming it from bog water into
pure vapors, which spread throughout the air, to fall as rain under another
square's direction. The seeds themselves repeat this sending. Being of
the nature of water of earth themselves, they yet are blown by the winds
into the farthest corners of the earth, there to lie fallow until again they
have the water of earth to raise up.
"In the animal kingdom, this square rules the aspirations of domestic
animals to be like their masters, we who are human souls. (Though I
come to you as the sphinx, which my nature duplicates, yet am I as
human as are you, o man.)
I was shown an image of a dog that belongs to a friend of mine. This
animal understands a vocabulary of about thirty words, making him a
genius among canines. He also frequently tries to imitate the behavior of
his master. He reacts to the emotional atmosphere with expression and
behavior that are an uncanny reflection of her own usual reactions to
similar situations. He does this whether she is present or not. He is also
the only animal I know that is creative. On his own, he has thought up
several games to occupy himself with when the humans don't have time
for him. He plays according to rules that are clear to any observer. If he
decides he doesn't like a particular rule after some experimentation with it,
then he will change that rule all at once and never use the old rule again
in that game.
The sphinx continued: "Such beings live intensely on the astral levels, yet
their astral is limited to that part which relates to their earth-lives. The
emotion which powers their astral life is the water gathered from out of
their earth-experience. In the breeding and improvement of the breeds for
our own purposes, we have caused some of these animals to evolve to
the point where they are on the threshold of developing an human
consciousness, adding the sphere of mind to that of emotion. Thus we
have Air of Water of Earth.
"It also rules those animals who gather their food from the waters, yet live
in the air. These are not the aquatic birds, which are ruled under the tablet
of air, but those insects and other small things which fly above the waters,
looking for that which can feed them to rise up out of the waters, as
certain insects wait for the larvae of mosquitos to hatch and arise, inorder
to feed upon them. The water-striders are one such in your experience.
Those spiders who spin their webs just above the waters are another
such. Mammals also do this sometimes, but the majority do not depend
entirely on the waters for their nourishment, and thus are not fully
governed by this square.
"In the human kingdom, as well as the aspirations referred to before, the
square also rules those group-feelings which cause the masses of men to
suddenly rise up against their government, demanding better than they
have had of it in the past. All populist movements originate under this
square, though all go their separate ways as they emerge from the waters
of the mass experience of man, which is the emotional nature of that
creature called Humanity. The salt of the earth directs its emotion to an
idea, again creating Air out of Water of Earth.
"In the spiritual kingdom, we see those who have risen out of the earth as
said before, and as well, those who are ready to advance to any higher
level. We here see this square as the look of one who sees beyond
himself into the heavens, and desires, at any level, to be raised up to the
next.
"Even though the square is in a mundane tablet, yet this is the case,
because the First Matter which is worked upon in any initiation is the soul
of the man involved. Though it is of the spirit, and of the Sun, yet it is the
earth in relation to that which comes next above it.
"Now, the time has come for us to tell you more of your own adventure to
come. Since we are in a square of great aspirations, this is appropriate to
the power here.
"In the last vision, we told you that you are to be the Beast of this next
generation of magicians."
(I acknowledged that they had told me this..)
"You agree that this was what was said, yet you resist accepting it. We
understand that this is due to your early bad experiences with this form of
communication we are using, in which you came under the influence of
spirits unworthy of your power or attention. That you had the good sense
to cut off those communications is to your great credit. Many of those who
have tried this method have fallen by the wayside in their early days due
to just this thing. Those others who did not fall and who managed to
progress as you have done since then in its use are counted by us as the
best hope we have to get our message to the world in this time.
"It is vital that you be fully initiated into the grade of Master of the Temple
before this comes about, both because of your own oath in this area,25
and because only the masters can judge the message with full
understanding, and thereby be confident of its necessity.
"In the next few weeks and possibly months, we will be giving to you
gradually those things you need to be ready for this initiation.26 To allow
us the right conditions in which to do this, you should continue with this
project of doing all the kerubic squares of the Earth tablet. We, or those
more suited, will give you the meaning of each square, and those
attributions of it to the various worlds, each in the manner he is most
comfortable with. Some will be like this current communication, in which
you essentially transfer my dictation directly to your fingers to type. Others
will be of the more frequently used visionary style which you like so much
but feel to be your weak point. Yet others will be done in other ways, as
the gods dictate for their new cousin.
"Now, finish up the typing of this document for tonight, and go to your bed
and comtemplate the Tarot for a while."
I asked if he had anything more to say about the nature of the message. It
was indicated that this must be given in detail at a much later date, and
would in fact be part of my initiation as a Master of the Temple.
The sphinx added: "We see that you are anxious about this yet, as is
natural to one who has suffered so at the hands of those who should be of
good will to his spirit. Know that there shall be a sign which is not only
enough to convince you, but to convince those who need to be convinced
in order for the work to be carried forward. We will not leave you in the
cold with no basis on which to justify yourself other than our
communications themselves. But the nature of the sign is such that you
will not realize it until long after it has occurred, at which point it will fall on
you as a flash of lightning from the sky."
"Be patient, be gentle with yourself, and pursue those other avenues that
open to you as you see fit. Among them are those that you will need. Of
the woman who is to be your scarlet woman, I may speak not, for it is not
my place to control your destiny. Seek you in your life and she will
appear."
"You should end this vision now."
I returned to the astral temple, closed it after giving thanks for another
square revealed, and returned to my body fully.
12/6/85
The square "h" of the watery lesser angle of earth.
8.30 pm
I recited the calls, and called upon the names, MOR DIAL HCTGA,
ICZHIHAL, ANAEEM, SONDN, HRAP. The pyramid appeared, showing
the north, east, and west sides in the black of earth, the south in the blue
and orange of water.
Entering the pyramid, I called upon the name hRap again. Then I called
for the sphinx to appear. He did so, showing himself as a bull with the tail
of an eagle. I saluted him with the 5=6 sign, and he returned it, after which
he bowed to me. I tested him with the pentagrams, which caused him to
become a little clearer in the vision.
He said: "Greetings to you, o man, from the watery lesser angle of the
earth tablet. I have come here at your call to show you what you wish of
this place."
He lay down on his left side, with his rear hooves laid out to the right. I
asked him to show me an image of the powers of the square. Instantly we
were high in the air, looking down on a world that was cubic in shape.
Within the cube, swirls of blue could be seen moving, and they did not
cause the cube to change shape.
I said "Tell me, o sphinx, of the meaning ofthis image."
He said: "The waters of earth have returned to the earth, and give it its
receptiveness and internal mutability. Thus, those things of earth maintain
their form, despite the movements of the tiny fires within them." I took the
"tiny fires" to be the atoms and molecules that make up the matter.
The sphinx appeared to have nothing more to say, so I called upon the
goddess ruling the square, Nepthys. Vibrating her name several times did
not cause her to appear. Instead, my own astral body began to grow
larger, and as it did so, it adopted the shape of the goddess. I grew until it
was larger than the earth. I then felt her presence inhabiting the body with
me.
Nepthys said: "Oh man, thou art in the middle of a great sea-change, and
the energies of the water of earth have great difficulty in fighting their way
through the forces of Uranus that surround you now. Let it be that you do
not do these squares of earth again until this pass be done. At that time,
we will continue, if you so wish, with the exposition of these squares.
"Now, if you would continue to do something with the Enochian Walls
during this time, I would call to your attention the squares of the central
cross of the Wall."
I asked if these would be of greater efficacy in this time, and if she could
suggest any particular squares to do from the cross.
She said: "Now, the great cross binds all the squares of the lesser angles
of the tablet together, and is of a higher rate of vibration than these
kerubic squares, and those other squares of the lesser angle. In your
current state, your internal rate of vibration has been increased by the
influence of the planet [Uranus], so that you can not see the weaker
vibrations of the squares. This is why you have such great trouble now.
Your own vibrations tend to wash out the image.
"If you wish to do the central cross squares, I suggest to you that you
study again the attributions of these squares to the decanates. Look to
them to see if there is one that might be of use in explaining the things
that you are now going to go through. If nothing comes to mind directly,
look to the Tarot to inspire your intuition with the proper course.27"
I waited for Nepthys to continue.
She said: "Now, you have called upon me here, and I must answer you.
The powers of this square are those of the earth when it is frozen into its
solid state. But within the solid, the waters are present. This causes the
molecules of the solid to vibrate with the flow of forces around and
through them. It is, in fact, the responsiveness of earth to impulses,
electromagnetic, spiritual, or grossly physical.
"Without the water within the earth, then earth would be nothing but inert,
ever as it was in the beginning, unchanging and unchanged. Without the
waters of earth, the earth could not hold the souls of the men and
creatures who inhabit her, for they are of fire, and fire requires its
complement to give form to its creativity.
"Within the earth, this square causes the fires of the beginning, the Great
Orgasm which began all things, to take on form. As it is said: 'In the
beginning the earth was without form, and void, and darkness covered the
face of the earth.' This was the earth that was before the beginning.
"'And the gods divided the waters above from the waters below.' That is,
they caused the void to become responsive by creating in it the potential
of duality. Yet the earth was not, yet.
"'And the gods said, Let there be light, and there was light.' Thus occured
the Great Orgasm, the ejaculation which spewed into the void the
energies which were to become the powers of all the squares of the
Walls. Yet even now, there was no form upon the face of existence.
"The fires of the Orgasm, in their original state, were of such a high rate of
vibration that nothing could be made of them, but that it immediately was
unmade. Chaos ruled the cosmos for an instant that was an eternity.
"It was only when the fires were cooled by the waters of the previously-
created potential space that existence became possible. It was the
manner in which those pre-existence waters were divided that caused the
fires of the Orgasm to take the forms that allow life to come into being
within the cosmos that was the fires. For the Two became the Four, each
reflecting itself in the other, doubling itself, folding itself over. Had the
water been divided into the Three, then the world would now be based on
sixes, not fours, and six would be the number of Establishment, not the
number of the Art of the Design.
"Look you now to that smallest of levels within the world, and see that
those particles there are held in their shapes, not by their own internal
structure, but by the counter-pressure of the waters.
I looked, and saw before me a sub-subatomic particle, a quark, or
whatever it is that quarks are made of. These particles had the will to fly
apart from each other, and to return to the original chaos. But as they
grew farther apart from each other, the pressure of the waters forced
them back together again, so that no matter how forcefully they flew apart,
yet they could not get beyond a certain distance from each other.
"These tiny particles, always in threes, together made up one element of
the Four, in each of the three phases that the gods did allow. Thus, in the
first of the visions of this angle, we showed you the signs of Sulphur, Salt,
and Mercury, within the fires of water of earth.
"When the waters had spread the fires of the Orgasm thoughout the void,
and relieved the pressure of its bursting by absorbing that pressure into
themselves, then it was that creation became manifest in the world as it is
now. The tiny sparks, in their threes, moved about in the waters. Yet the
form-giving nature of the waters caused these motions to all be of certain
types, so that larger patterns of motion could be seen in their joint
wanderings. The waters, reflecting back on themselves, caused these
larger patterns to group themselves, and to hold together in the manner of
the original particles. Thus were made the so-called 'elementary' particles,
which in turn made up the atoms, which in turn made up the molcules,
which in turn made up the world as man knows it in his uninitiated state.
"At all levels did the waters hold the fires, and cool them, so that these
larger forms could come into being. Thus, at all times and in all places did
the energies of the Orgasm weaken, but in their weakening did they allow
for greater complexity. Know ye that the law which man calls entropy is
partly a lie, for matter does not go from greater order to lesser order, but
from lesser order to greater order. The appearance of Chaos returning as
the fires weaken and disperse is the fault of man's viewpoint, not an
actuality of the cosmos. For as the energies disperse in the so-called
entropy, there are created ever more particles out of the dispersed
energy, and thus the interactions and combinations possible within the
cosmos increase ever in number. This is the perpetual unfolding of the
mysteries within the realms of Earth."
"Now, as to the effect of this square and its companions in the larger
worlds, there is much more to be said than can be said in one trip into the
vision. As your intuition has grasped in the moments of insight you have
had since beginning on this lesser angle, the key to the understanding of
the angle is in the processes of birth and creation on all levels. There is
within these squares the key..."
Nephthys suddenly stopped speaking. I waited, and got an impression
that I should wait for a moment while she marshalled her speech. I did so.
After a few minutes, Nepthys spoke again: "The other gods in this place
where I live have reminded me that you have intent to distribute these
visions so that other magicians and students might learn from them. For
this reason I can say no more in this place of what I had intended to say
to you. For there is a mystery here that you should not know to reveal at
this time, and if we had told you, your own integrity would not allow you to
edit it out of the vision as you will publish it. This is an admirable motive,
and we approve of it, but in this instance, it would be better for things to
be left for the time when they can be accepted fully. For now, contemplate
the nature of the birth process in humans when you have the chance, and
see how this relates to the squares of this angle. When the time is right,
you will understand and tell of these things to those who need to know.
"We know that you are a hater of secrecy, and have refused to join any
such organization as the OTO, or of the many successors to the Golden
Dawn, because you fear they would cause you to take oaths that you
could not abide by concerning the revelation of the knowledge. We are
aware that your judgment would allow you to keep something secret if the
reasons were right, but in this instance, your judgment lacks a firm
foundation. So we withhold what you deserve for yourself, in order that it
not be spread prematurely.
I said to the goddess that I understood her, and that I would abide without
protest the decision not to show whatever it was they had withheld. I
asked the goddess if there was more to say at this point, and she said
that there was, but that she was not the one to say it.
I got a sense that there was another being present, besides myself and
the goddess, a being much more powerful than her, waiting for something
before speaking. The goddess herself did not speak further.
I waited, and still there was no speech from the goddess, or from whoever
was waiting behind her. I called upon that being to show himself (its aura
was definitely male in quality), but got only a sense of amusement.
There seemingly being nothing more to the vision, I separated myself
from the goddess, saluted her again with the 5=6 signs. As I did so, the
force of the square surged up around me. It ebbed again, and I was back
in my astral temple.
I banished the forces of the square from the temple, and returned to my
body.
A Vision of the square "Z" of the Airy Lesser Angle of the Earth Tablet.
12/12/85 8:30 pm
I vibrated the calls and the names. Immediately there was an image of
furiously blowing air, rising above a hot dry land.
A voice said: "Holy, Holy, Holy, yea thrice and four times holy are the fires
that blow within the angle of earth, for they bring light to the world. Yet
above them is the darkness of matter."28
I visualized the pyramid, and found myself suddenly within it without
willing it. The sphinx confronted me, showing the aspect of the bulls head,
a lion's front legs and torso, and the rear legs of the man. Like a minotaur
with paws.
I gave him the 5=6 signs, which he answered with 5=6, and the earth, air,
and fire signs. He led me to an altar in the middle of the pyramid, and
asked me to lay my hand upon it. I put down my right hand to it, and was
immediately engulfed in an aura of bright yellow flecked with red.29
He told me that this was in order to allow me to feel the force of this place
in its purity, before encountering it in the visions to come. The reason for
this was that I was still feeling the effects of the Uranus transit, which was
not yet completed, and the extra force would help me to get a purer, and
clearer vision of the squares. He advised me that it was likely that I would
still have trouble seeing some of the aspects of the squares, but that it
was necessary now to invoke them in order to keep the momentum of my
work going.
While he said this I had stepped back from the altar, and could see that it
was a cubical altar of the universe, not two cubes as in the standard G.D.
altar, but only one, resting on the side attributed to the spirit, with the
tablets as the sides, and a brilliant white top, which was for the unknown
tablet that is invoked by the unrevealed key 0 of the Enochian calls.
Now he told me to step forward again and take my hands to the side of
the altar showing the earth tablet. I did so, and he guided me to put my
hands on the Kerubic squares of the Airy Lesser Angle. I did so, putting
my right hand over the letters Z and a, and the left hand over the letters b
and O.
This produced the sensation of the elements rushing at me from all sides
at once, to meld together in the center of my chest. I said to him that the
force felt more general than simply that of these few squares, but the
sphinx told me that I was simply feeling the power of the letters of IHVH
whole, within the angle of Air of Earth.
I didn't understand this until I removed my hands, and saw that the sides
of the squares showed the elemental colors glowing brightly. The heels of
my hands had rested primarily on the two horizontal sides of each
square's pyramid, and less so on the top and the bottom that indicated the
tablet and lesser angle.
"Now, in order to go further with this vision", said he, "you must think of
the god of this square. This god is Kabexnuf, who shows the aspect of the
hawk in his head."
I moved to the north side of the altar, so that I was facing south to the airy
side of the pyramid, and invoked the god kabexnuf, while holding my
hands forward over the altar in the sign of the Enterer.
The god appeared, facing me across the altar. His head was that of a
hawk, with a black nemyss, yellow and white coloring on his face, with a
bit of black just above the beak, and his arms were tied to his sides within
his wrapping/shroud.
I greeted him with the 5=6 signs. he did not respond in gestures, but
instead spoke and said "Ol sonuf vorsag, goho Iad balata, elonusaha
caelazod vonupeho." This is the first line of the first of the keys of Enoch.
He continued to recite the First Key as I tested him with the pentagrams,
and he grew larger at their use. I told him that I was without understanding
of why he had said the first of the keys, when this was one of the lesser
tablets.
He completed his invocation and said: "Know, o man, that it would be to
your great advantage if you would use the invocation of the First which is
the Second in all your invocations of the tablets. This allows the forces to
be under the presiding spirit of the gods, and therefore will your powers
be exalted in the square you invoke. When you come unto us using only
the lower keys and names, then you get less of an effect and the effect is
more of the earthly trend, where we desire you to see those aspect of the
squares that relate more to the spirit.
"This is one of the many ways in which the use of the tablets can be
varied in order to pick particular parts of the forces to see. As you saw in
the square "M" of the Fiery Lesser Angle, each small variance in the
attributes, though appropriate to the square, produces subtle changes in
what is seen.
"Now, it is still too early to expect to get a clear vision within the full aspect
of a square. Here within the pyramid we are protected somewhat from the
force of the devourer, but without the pyramid, in the body of the square,
then the devourer would return with full force.
"For the present, we wish to tell you of a few things of a more general
nature that will help your work."
I said that I was amenable to this. He told me to get up and go to the
bathroom so that I could listen in comfort. I did so.
"Now," says he, "you have wondered at the way in which your body
seems to split itself into many parts in these visions, so that one seems to
be the magician, and another the watcher, and yet another remains within
the corpse [i.e. the physical body] in order to write what the others have
seen. "
I acknowledged that this was the case, and said that it seemed to relate to
Gemini on my nadir.
He said that this was in part true, though the effect was common one. "But
in your case," he continued, "it is also an effect of your early working with
the cards of Tarot. While shuffling the cards, you often found yourself out
on another plane, receiving information that had nothing to do with the
intent of the Tarot reading you were trying to do.
"In the course of your divinations, you suddenly would discover a flash of
insight on some other subject coming into your mind. This was an unusual
effect, and one that was of great use to you."
I agreed that this was the case.
"You also found yourself with an extra set of hands, on an astral level, that
seemed to be feeling each card as it went by in the shuffle. What you
were doing, all unknowing, was using the cards as a meditation on the
movements of the universe, its continual ebb and flow. And out of the flow
you would snatch that which you needed. The readings themselves often
turned out to be of no significance at all in comparison with what you were
receiving in the other way.
"What you had actually done in this was to find a way of causing the great
Plutonian force that is within you to concentrate itself in one spot, allowing
your Neptune and Sun to go where they would among the levels of the
plenum. Your Pluto being in the sixth house, which governs detail work,
the acts of shuffling, with its fine motor control, produced a focus of the
Pluto on the cards.
"This is why you often have difficulty getting what you need out of the
cards. The Pluto, while it is forceful, tends to remove from the symbols it
touches their significance, causing a loss of meaning."
"Now, as the Pluto went this way, so your Neptune went another, pulling
from the great pool of information on the higher astral levels those things
of spirit which were of most importance to your work at the time. The
Neptune being in the eighth house, it could touch upon those things which
are the heritage of all intelligent beings within the worlds of the spirit. I
realize that you are trying to remember the name of Akasha, and so I say
it here.
"The akasha is the central pool into which all knowledge flows, and here
in the airy lesser angle do many of the powers of the akasha originate.
The Air of Earth is the etheric body, which as the lord of Bailey30 has said
to you, is the main place of residence of the akashic powers. That is, | | |
