Area : MAGICK

Date : Sep 29 '95, 21:48                                                       
From : Pleasure Slave                                          1:207/802
To   : All                                 
Subj : The Touch of Satan                                                    
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Dear Chuck (Calhoun)--

-- I have had experiences with a number of different exorcisms.  Some are
purely psycological in nature.  Some spiritual.

How exactly do you define the difference between the two?  Often, I've felt
the two, the psychological and the physcial, are so closely linked, so closely 
related.  They are often difficult to separate, and I am not speaking in terms 
of exorcisms.  I'm being generic here.  For example, when SD began his ritual
for me, he had previously said, pay attention to the clock and at 5:00 PM, I
should feel something.  Keep in mind again that this was to occur within the
distance between Illinois and California.  Well, 5:00 came and went.  I did
pay attention.  What I experienced was great disappointment.  Why?  Because I
noticed and felt 'nothing' different.  Some might contend that was because I'm
not a believer, that I wasn't of positive thought.  That thought is a
falsehood, simply not true.  Too many things have happened over the years for
me to not believe there are 'other' forces to reckon with.  I don't exactly
recall how much time passed, perhaps a couple of hours as darkness was about
to set in for the night.  I had stopped thinking about SD by that time.  I had 
stopped wondering 'if' he had really tried to do something.  I had stopped
wondering, if he did something, just exactly what it was.  SD was not on my
mind at all.  Suddenly, I felt warm.  It was a glowing warmth actually.  I
felt exhilarated, and most of all, I felt at peace.  It was a feeling of peace 
that I'd not experienced in many long years.  It felt wonderful !  I
found myself wondering if this was indeed a result of something SD had done. 
The next morning, the feeling was still with me.  I felt so greatful, so
happy, so at peace (it's really kinda hard to find the right words to express
just how I felt).  Within 30 minutes, I was at the keyboard going through my
netmail/e-mail.  There was a note from SD asking how I felt .  Of
course, I answered the note, in great detail and still filled with a glowing
warmth.  Well, it was short lived.  By that evening, these newfound feelings
began to diminsh.  It was such an obvious thing, and though I tried very hard
to fight off the dying flame, it was to no avail.  Know what?  I think I've
strayed from my original thought again... sorry .  The point is that
what SD did was spiritual, not psychological.  I believe that it was the
spiritual that first touched me, only to be taken over by the psychological.
What I don't understand is why my own psychological could not maintain what he 
had started.

-- It should have been divined first to determine what type of being is/was
oppressing you BEFORE any exorcism was performed.

Well, it was and it wasn't.  He seemed to know what he was doing.  I've
suspected for many years just who and what is with me.  I've mentioned it in
passing only a couple of times in my lifetime, only to be met with open jaws
and disbelief.  I don't often discuss these things.  What you have to
understand is that I've met who I believe is Satan.  Damn, I can't believe
I've come out and said it...  Well, what the heck.  If you all think I'm
crazy, then so be it.  I have believed this for over 20 years, and it was a
time I'll never forget.  Nor will I forget the intense 'peace' and 'fear'
that both embraced me at the same time.

Warm thoughts,
  Pleasure Slave

         "Dreams are real whilst they last, can we say more of life?"
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