Area : I_UFO
Date : Aug 15 '95, 00:12
From : Paul West, 114:3/0.4
To   : All
Subj : Abducitons Explained


Hi there.

As promised, I am going to repost most of what I've already written
here because none of it has been seen yet. However, I do not want to
repost the messages in their original (forward) viewpoint, so I am
going to rewrite them somewhat for you, where necessary. To start off
the explosion of messages, to follow are my thoughts on abductions
performed by the greys and some details of my own experiences.

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First of all, a little about how consciousness is conscious of itself.
In the physical brain there is a neural network. That neural network,
like the network in some new computer software `artificial
intelligence' concepts, acts to allow processing and storage of
information. The brain is just like a computer, and therefore although
it is biochemical and seemingly `alive', I propose that it is not
actually that conscious of itself, if at all. Instead, consciousness
within the brain is derived from the concentration of consciousness,
which interfaces with the brain. Consciousness may well fill the whole
of the brain, but I also suggest that it doesn't need to fill all of
the body. So consciousness attatches at the brain. Consciousness is
conscious of itself because it is essentially part of God, the part
that sees his creation, that sees itself.

I also want to propose that there is more than one reason why physical
humanity evolves with each generation. Its not simply that the new
children start off learning at a higher level. If that kept happening
then the children would eventually be like diving in at degree level
studies, and that would be totally confusing. So they must have some
sort of evolution, some kind of knowlege which is passed on by the
parents. I suggest that is NOT a genetic heritance, but is in fact
more of a continuance of consciousness. When you die your
consciousness still retains the memories which were channeled back to
your original body/soul, and so when you incarnate again the knowlege
and understanding from the previous life must surely leak somewhat
into the next life, hense allowing the child to start off with a
certain amount of inherant knowlege. I personally have seen certain
`waves' of children. When I was at school, I noticed that the pupils
in each year were somewhat different from those in different years.
The year above us was of a certain sensible nature, then there was our
year which was more of a sporting nature, and then the year below
which was a little on the nasty side, and so on. It seemed almost like
children had been born in each year, and each year held certain
attributes for what most of the babies would grow up to demonstrate. I
guess that could be some kind of evolutionary process where certain
types of people sort of come in groups spread over a period, people
who will demonstrate similar attributes. That could be because
creation had got to certain stages and hense the humans that were
incarnating had to have similar goals depending on their time of birth
in the year or over other short periods. So therefore, you arrive at
the conclusion that you inherit a number of things through the
incarnation process, inherited from the previous life. So if you were
strangled to death in the previous life, then maybe you'll have neck
problems in this life as the conscious awareness of that event
manifests into physical ailments. Its because consciousness is
seperate of the brain. The consciousness interfaces at the brain, and
therefore emotions and experiences and traumas can therefore BE part
of the conscious awareness, and hense the consciousness can
(unknowingly) direct the physical body to produce difficulties. I
think its a little more complex than that, something to do with auras
and energy fields, but I'm basically saying that a LOT of illness and
diseases (cancer included) might well be a result of a problem with
your consciousness, a problem with your view of life and the control
you have on it. So a cure for cancer might well be to sort your life
out and get conscious control in a positive fashion. I dont know that
that would `cure' cancer, as the manifestation of cancer would need a
medical cure probably, but it would be a prevention. In furthering the
need to prevent, you might indirectly help the cancer to be removed
and healed.

You will observe that the higher you go into the planes/dimensions the
more consciousness has an effect on the substance of those planes.
That seems to therefore imply that as you're going higher there is
something which is allowing a freeing of consciousness. Its simply the
way the planes are made. In each plane, the higher you go the less
solid reality is, and hense the less bounded consciousness is, and the
higher you get the more consciousness spreads and moulds the substance
of that plane. Also, because there is a freeing of consciousness, that
results in a higher frequency of perception in the body. It's that the
consciousness is able to operate at a higher frequency (some kind of
frequency) and hense allows a perception of smaller time moments. So
that also accounts for why time will last for so much longer up on the
higher planes. If you were here in the physical observing someone in
the astral, you'd see that they seemed to move extremely quickly, and
they would see that you move pretty slowly.

So that sort of rubs off on the situation with the [Zeta] greys. You
will notice that they seem to move pretty quickly, and that gives the
illusion that they are thinking quickly and are hense doing very
purposeful motions. If you slowed down their actions you'd however see
something similar to the way we act, yet with an extra amount of
control which they have arrived at through evolution. I suggest that
their speed and accuracy is because their consciousness is spread
accross more planes, and because their souls are extremely old the
consciousness has had time to evolve greatly, and thus floods into the
bodies of the other planes also. Hense, their consciousness moves into
a state of higher accuracy. Some have also said that they move
extremely slowly, which could maybe suggest another state of placing
some consciousness into the lower plane? Maybe the zetas are also 7-d
beings? Also, when they do the intense close staring procedure which
taps into your consciousness, I suggest that what they are doing is
actually focussing their consciousness into a higher plane so that it
is able to bridge the gap into your consciousness. Hense, they tap
into your consciousness on a higher plane and channel information,
calming, probing and scanning, down to the physical. They may also be
taking YOUR consciousness into a higher plane to so that the two can
interface directly. So when abductees say that the aliens are `in
their heads', that is why. Its because they tap into your
consciousness on a higher level, so that they can effectively share
your consciousness with you, and hense experience your emotion and
thoughts. Quite clever really. So its effectively telepathy, and also
a kind of `posession' situation. Also, because they have that ability
to tap in (in other words, because they are strongly telepathic), they
should also be able to make you feel things which are not genuine
feelings. That would be a useful tool, and seems to have been used to
invoke feelings of love and understanding, as well as to show the
abductee images and feelings of holocaustic events. So I suggest that
those images may not actually be real, and indeed anything you see
from the future is somewhat unreal, and hense they are obviously
utilising the moulding abilities of higher planes to demonstrate
situations to you. They are an advanced race, and therefore can mould
that matter quite powerfully, hense producing vivid and detailed
imagery. So the situations where you are shown such things is some
kind of `astral projection', but with a link to the aliens also.

You will notice that in a lot of abductions, there is a LOT of this
`staring', and the staring usually results in a telepathic link being
set up, of the grey being `in your head'. So it seems that throughout
the abduction they are trying to assess you, your emotions, your
thoughts, as well as use it to implant thoughts and images. The
situation of implanting hidden memories is actually quite simple.
Generally speaking, people don't recall abduction memories. Some do,
some don't. There's probably some kind of control determining who they
allow to be more likely to recall without hypnosis. The way they do it
is this: They take you on a trip to a higher plane, taking your
consciousness there, and then they can show you images and so forth.
They can demonstrate techniques and concepts, and can effectively add
those to your consciousnes. Your consciousness will, as with any
perceptions, proceed to store that information within the nearest
body, be it the astral or other. Hense that information gets stored in
a higher body. Then when you are back in the physical, all the
memories of what you've been shown are pretty hard to recall for the
simple fact that the physical brain is not the place where they are
being stored. The only way your physical brain can recognise those
memories is to channel that information down from the higher body.
Generally, that is not easy to do. It results in the sort of
`subconsciousness' effect of those memories being embedded out of
reach of conscious thought. Therefore, that seems to be why you will
recall those embedded images while dreaming - because in dreams your
consciousness is closer to that higher body, and hense can perceive it
much better.

Now the situation with cover memories. I think that the idea of a
cover memory is actually an illusion. It is NOT a cover memory, it is
your own consciousness which is causing it to happen. Remember, if
they show you that stuff and tell you still while taking your
consciousness higher, then that information will be stored in a higher
body. We know from astral projection that the higher planes are very
much symbolic of what the consciousness is thinking, and therefore is
will be VERY easy to misinterpret the memories. If you try looking for
the memories you will be sort of an outsider, and hense you will cloud
your perceptions, your consciousness will cause the memories to appear
differently, and hense you arrive at a so called cover memory. Its
simply the difficulties involved in perceiving the higher planes.
Interpretations thus become highly symbolic and your interpretation OF
the interpretation leads to a cover memory which has symbolic elements
denoting the aspects of what went on. That is why you will often
recall and maybe even relive such memories while you are dreaming. Its
not just the elements of trauma which are causing a change in the
perception of memory, it is that the memory is held in a place where
moulding of images by consciousness is very much easier.

This leads onto hypnosis and an explanation for why it enduces the so
called `false memory syndrome'. People dont really know what causes
it, and are foolish in looking for a physical-brain theory behind it,
for they don't even know what consciousness and the mind really is.
They regress you which places your physical brain into a trace state.
The trance state effectively brings about a sort of `dream' situation,
where the consciousness is released. Then the consciousness drifts off
to another plane. Not totally, but almost. It then gets close to the
body where the memories are stored. On doing that, that body attemps
to perceive the memories stored in it. However, due to the nature of
the higher planes, recollection and knowlege of those memories causes
a lot of conscious activity, and hense causes memories to become
symbolic. It is usually only the deepest and more analytical `trance'
which will allow a seeing of the memories as they really are. So the
cover memory situation is simply your own difficulties in seeing the
memories, and the `false memory' situation is also of a similar
nature. Repressed memories are channeled into the higher bodies,
especially in abductions, and hense are subject to the
interpretational effects of those planes.

Now I'd like to propose the reason why you are kind of lathargic and
`drugged' while in an abduction, and also the reason for paralysis and
control. When you shift consciousness into a higher body, you then are
less likely to be focussed in one place. Your consciousness therefore
can be induced (by telepathic link) to move into a higher body. You
will retain enough consciousness in your physical body to still
effectively perceive with it, yet conscious control will be greatly
diminished. Also note that this happens in sleep, and sleep paralysis
is actually this same effect of moving conscious control elsewhere. So
that arises in the paralysis, and hense you can't struggle and cause
panick. Thats also why the grey are sometimes rather fearful when a
potential abductee is not properly paralysed and managed to exercise
control. The taller grey seem more able to probe telepathically, and
hense its usually them who are doing the bulk of the work. They are
doing all the compassion and calming work, and are also the ones that
are able to get you under control should you manage to break free.
There have been stories of abductees gaining enough concious control
to run, but they are eventually bogged down, feel lathargic, and
ultimately regained control of. I would like to point something our
here. Out of body experience and related experiences are in the way
consciousness is able to control itself. They are therefore `safe'
inductions of higher states. However, drugs are not. They do not allow
consciousness to control itself in where it goes, and hense pollutes
the body in order to induce a state where consciousness can move
elsewhere - effectively enducing a `trip'. So don't do drugs kiddies!
Its not healthy and its not necessary. You can get the same and much
BETTER highs by controlling your consciousness WITH your consciousness
and not by trying to dope it up into a stupour.

Right. My abduction explanation is coming together nicely now. What
else is there... er, oh yea, this situation of being abducted OUT of
your body as opposed to physical abductions. I believe that my most
recent abduction was one of these `out of body' situations. The reason
is that if they don't necessarily need your physical body, then they
will interface with your consciousness and take it into a place in a
higher plane, which may appear to be similar to an alien room or
something, where they will take on an information role, as I believe
they did with me. When the body is left back here waiting, its
possible for another grey to `walk in', by also tapping into your
consciousness, and putting THEIR consciousness into your body,
effectively `posessing' it. Therefore, its even possible for that body
to get up and walk around in the physical, go to work, etc, and still
seem to be the same person. The `walk in' being will probably be
trained in doing it, and will be aided in the fact that tapping into
the consciousness will allow that alien to realise and /use/ the
personality of that person, hense making it all the more realistic. In
the other situation, you've got the physical abductions, where they
take your physical body. This is when its needed. Also bear in mind
that while you are out of body being taught, they can also be doing
things to your physical while you're away, a sort of `body burgular'
thing while you are on holiday. So when they take or do something to
your physical, they can still enduce the OOBE state to effectively
`drug' you into a stupour, lacking control, by joining with your
consciousness. The reason they need to stare SO close to your forehead
is because the closer they can get to the interface with the chord the
better and more powerful the effect will be, because their telepathic
skills fade with distance - they are short range. They CAN be long
range, but are generally not, and so they get really close just to be
on the safe side. Being close makes it easier to connect the
consciousnesses.

The reason that they abduct at night while you are asleep is fairly
simple. You are going to be in an altered state of consciosness, which
means your consciousness will likely be shifted elsewhere. When it is,
they can interface on that higher plane without having to enforce your
consciousness to go there. It will already be there, maybe in the
middle of a dream. Hense dreams of abductees sometimes change mid-way
into something more terrifying, later diverting back to their original
agenda. So the classic `bedroom abduction' is quite logical, and the
night also provides cover. They can be doing things to your physical
body while also doing things in a teaching manner. Effectively
enabling them to calm and communicate with you while still being in
control on all levels. Its also simple to put your bed-partner into
paralysis and sleep by simply causing their consciousness to shift
into a deep dream or something.

When you get a situation of seeing a certain vehicle which then turns
into something else as you approach, that is also a consciousness
effect. They are tapping in and causing part of your consciousness to
see what is effectively a hallucination, a seeing of a higher plane,
and then when you are within their grasp you will see what the thing
really is. Its usually on a method of concentration that you see
`through' the hallucination, which happens because you are trying to
concentrate your consciousness into the physical perception. Hense the
hallucination fades away revealing the true nature of the coverup
image. It may be that the beam of light they hit you with is some kind
of tool which allows a bridging of consciousness, allowing them to tap
in, envoking your consciousness to behave itself.

This area leads me into a slightly different point. Imagination is the
thing we all have and use, and we all produce pictures in our `minds'
when thinking about things, especially when day dreaming (which is a
shifting of consciousness). I suggest that imagination is a sort of
tapping in to a higher plane, a shifting of consciousness into a
higher plane where you are able to see what you're thinking about.
Therefore, when you also recall memories which you've stored, its
likely that you dont recall and rebuild those memories in the physical
brain, instead you are utilising your higher bodies to help create an
image from the consciousness. In bringing the memory into
consciousness, consciousness will perceive it, and as its linked to
higher planes all the time, hense it allows a plethora of perceptive
abilities, and hense recall of complex memories. I would just like to
say at this point that when *I* am thinking about stuff and when I am
devising these theories, I am trying to picture what these concepts
look like and a LOT of my thinking process seems to be one of pictures
and visualising. It is also very useful in working stuff out, and
thats why I've been so quick to explain many thing recently. Pictures
are recreated IN another plane and channeled down to your physical
brain where the bulk of your consciousness is focussed. When you have
a daydream, you're shifting a lot more of your consciousness into a
higher plane, and thus briefly forget that you're in the physical,
which hits you in a flash as you suddenly realise, which is usually a
`calling back' procedure enduced by a noise or movement of some sort
here in the physical. Also, you should realise that each body is a
perceptive tool, and each has its own special abilities, and one
ability of higher bodies is to convert consciousness into three-
dimensional images, and hense recalling memories is probably very much
utilising the higher bodies to exploit their ability to mould the
higher reality. This applies for sounds, smell, touch etc also.. which
also accounts for why I felt the touch of an alien hand while in a
dream.

The dream was one where I touched hands with a taller grey while other
grey watched me, and at the moment of touch I felt that hand
physically, so I assume that, as the dream was in the astral, so the
stored experience of that REAL touch was able to be manifest again,
bypassing the brain. It bypasses the brain simply because its not
stored in the brain. The brain stores stuff electrically, the
perceptive bodies and consciousness are the things which turn that
data into usable stuff.

Similarly,  hallucinations must therefore also be higher perceptions,
so if someone is prone to hallucinations, you have to wonder if that
is actually a GIFT rather than a hinderence, an ability rather than a
disability. Therefore I suggest that hypnosis is NOT the thing which
is causing false memories, its a false _interpretation_ of memories by
the subject. The situation of leading questions is actually pretty
non-existent, and most hypnotists are careful. Abductees who have been
regressed often are telling the hypnotist that they ARE leading, and
hense do not follow that lead. (I personally have not been regressed).
Some are more ignorant of that though, and its those that are more
prone to allowing themselves to be led. So I propose that in fact
abdcutions are DEFINATELY not a simple hallucination or a simple error
of hypnosis, there are simply difficult to recall properly because of
the way consciousness works in higher planes. The physical brain might
have some imaging abilities, but I suggest that a large volume of such
techniques, used in imagination, hypnosis, OOBE's etc, are all to do
with higher planes.

You should also by now be aware that abductions can take place without
the actual need for a physical craft. Its perfectly possible for them
to attatch to you from a higher plane at any time they like, and hense
do not need to have a physical craft. Such abductions are usually for
information purposes and usually occurr at the end of the experience,
like they have with me. You should also know that there is a certain
`model' by which abductions generally adhere. A sort of script which
each abductee goes through, and generally do not miss out many
elements of that script. All the elements come in the same order.
There is (not in order) the implantation, the probing, the tapping of
consciousness, the reproduction, the staging, and the viewing and
information, all aspects which almost all abductees have been through.
Because these aliens can monitor you on a higher plane, they can also
therefore `watch' you, so when you feel like you're being watched,
when you feel like there is a presence watching over you, its likely
that the aliens have tapped into your consciousness and hense you feel
their presence. I felt this VERY strongly in my last abduction, an
absolutely immese feeling of presence, very intense. You simply could
not get that from physical effects, so I guess it must have been
occuring on a higher plane. I'd also like to point out that such a
feeling does not feel like it is in my head, it feels like its coming
from behind me to my right usually, as if they are standing there
watching me on a higher plane.

I'd like to get a little more personal now.

I'd just like to bring up some more detail of a situation I was
involved in one morning, which until now has had a few questions
hanging over it. One morning I was supposed to be getting up for
college. It was quite early, but one of the days that we didn't have
to arrive until later in the morning. So I'd woken up a few times and
gone back to sleep again. However, one time, which was the last time
(because after it I didn't much want to sleep), a wierd set of things
happened. In the last time of waking up, just before this happened,
I'd taken notice of the light in my room, the way things looked. Then,
soon after dozing back off I entered what I /thought/ was a dream. The
dream viewpoint was me sitting in my bed looking at the room. It all
looked just like it had when I last woke up! I knew that was a bit
wierd, but still thought it was a dream. Anyway, in the dream there
were two bodies on the floor wrapped in some cloths/sheets. I couldn't
see the bodies but I knew they were there. I also felt that I was
actually genetically related to them, sort of `sisters' or something.
I was saddened at their death, still sitting in bed, and to my right
there was someone who was sort of a father or a `power' figure who had
done this killing. I felt anger and sadness at the same time towards
that person. I couldn't see them, but they were there. Then suddenly
the dream changes completely. What happens next is very important.

I am standing on some grass. Its fairly dark in all directions. I
cannot see further than beyond the local vicinity, maybe 20 metres at
the most. The place where I am standing however is somewhat lighter,
illuminated. In front of me and at the sides there is a gathering of
aliens! This is the first and only time I recall actually seeing the
aliens. Remember, I thought this was a dream. These aliens were the
grey. They were short, the usual look, big dark eyes, but they had
some sort of pleased look about them. They were not actually doing
anything to me, they were just watching and grinning. There were about
10 of them I think. They were spread out into a sort of 10 meter area.
I looked at one in particular which was on my left in front of me, who
had a happy look about `it'. I dunno what sex it was, maybe male. Then
I noticed that in the middle in front of me stood on a sort of stairs
or ramp was a taller being, a taller grey. Actually, HE was taller
than I was by a foot or so. I'm saying it was a `he' because I sort of
felt that it was a really important being, powerful, wise, knowing. It
might have been female, I'm not sure. I have a feeling it might have
been female. Its really quite hard to tell. Anyway, that being too was
waiting for me and watching me. It was stood about 5 metres away. Then
the scene changes and I'm standing much closer to it now. All the
other grey have gathered in closer to watch eagerly. I feel that I
want to touch this taller grey. This is a very important moment
because it is me making the turning point and becoming cooperative,
going under my own free will. They were all in anticipation. The
taller grey raised its right arm and outstretched it towards me, at
the same time I reached out my right arm towards it. I was cautious,
but then we touched hands. At that very moment I got a VERY physical
feeling in my hand, of the same magnitude as you'd get doing the same
thing in real life. Then I awoke a little surprised, but actually sort
of pleased. Still, that very realistic touch was to bore away at me
somewhat, trying to work out how it can have felt so real. It was no
ordinary dream thats for sure. I'm not /sure/, but I think I might
have dozed back off to sleep agian soon after that, or I might be
getting my dates muddled (I've never really been too sure on this),
but I had a spontaneous OOBE.

All of a sudden I was conscious, and aware of the fact that I'd just
exited from my body. I could see it laying there. I panicked and all I
wanted to do was to pull back in again. I tried to do that with my
hands actually, but I couldnt actually SEE my hands, I couldnt see ANY
of me. I could only see my physical body, and my consciousness was no
longer in it! This is quite important, and its actually pretty much
the foundation of my search for working out why consciousness is
detatched from the physical. So pretty quickly I was back in my
physical again. That was it. I woke up with a start, feeling VERY
awake, almost like I'd not even been sleeping. I also sat up straight
away non-lathargically. Now, that event was also surprising. It is
also about that time (give a couple of days) that someone suggested to
me that I join the fidonet dreams echo to help decipher those
experiences, and the very first day in that echo someone posted text
explaining how to enduce an OOBE. I've been trying ever since.
However, going back to the point of me telling you this, I've still
been pretty puzzled up till know as to what really was going on there.
I now think that the alien dream was actually VERY `lucid', and
instead of my consciousness twisting things and covering them up, I
instead /somehow/ was actually perceiving the unhindered memories of
something that had really happened. Hense it was a clear memory
recall, not a dream. Also, as it was a memory recall, things were
really pretty lucid, and I may even go so far as to say that it was
actually another OOBE. That would help explain getting to the source
of repressed memory (stored in higher body), and also how the whole
thing (the touch) felt so real. It was because I was actually
reenacting the situation in the etheric/astral. I'm not /sure/ if the
aliens might have actually induced that to happen or not, but I can
now pretty confidendtly say that it was a memory which was unhindered
in its viewing. Actually, I did sort of feel a presence or something
while in that dream, as if something was behind me edging me along, so
maybe they were helping me recall it properly. Whatever was happening,
I can now be pretty sure that that is actually a recall of MEMORY, a
memory of some situation which has happened to me sometime in my past,
somewhere where I actually went and touched that aliens hand. As my
picture-memory is pretty good, I can see scenes from my dreams still
very clearly, and I can still see pretty much what those aliens looked
like! They aren't really all that hideous you know, they're even sort
of cute. I dunno WHEN that thing really occurred, maybe it was recent,
maybe in childhood.

Right, now to move on to further aspects of abduction. Implantation
first of all. In my youth I had a dream which reoccurred a few times.
It was situated in a classroom at primary school, and some of my
classmates were there. There was one classmate in particular which was
a pretty tall lass, in real life, and she was sort of in control. The
other beings were watching, yet busy doing something else. I was sat
with legs dangling over a desk, a wooden desk with a flip-up lid like
we had back then. Then this tall girl was trying to push a pencil into
my ear. At first she tried it in my left ear but as she seemed to
touch my eardrum it hurt, and I yanked that thing back out (somehow).
Then she moved around and started putting it into my right ear. She
was somehow soothing me like a good dentist or doctor/nurse would
while doing a blood test or something. She pushed that thing into my
right ear canal and it then seemed to go /through/ the ear drum. My
hearing became somewhat impaired and everything was sounding muffled
and detatched. Still she was pushing it further in, and it felt like
it was going to go right through my head. I think at about that moment
I screamed out loud in pain (not in real life, but in the dream). Then
she moves around to my left side and I think she does the same again,
and she seems to also puncture my left eardrum, pushing the thing in
really deep. I felt it going in and it wasn't nice. I /think/ I recall
saying that she had just gone and ruined my hearing. I seem to recall
still sitting on the desk as she was walking away, fiddling with some
implements or tools or something. Then I wake up with a feeling of
TOTAL terror. I am also terrified of the space behind my bedroom door,
where there was enough room for something to be. I was even afraid of
it in waking life. But waking up and being terrified like that is
really not a nice thing, it just fills all of you to the point where
you cant even notice any thoughts going on in your head. Sometimes I'd
scream for mum, usually I'd go into her room and wake her up and so
forth. I think that and one other dream reoccurred several times, for
I remember that horrible terror happening quite a lot of times. At the
time I thought it was just a bad dream, but in case you havent
realised already it most definately sounds like my perception of what
happened in an abduction. Like I said before, when somethings
traumatic, consciousness tends to use symbols to explain what was
going on, hense the classroom, classmates, desk, and pencil. I think
that after a while I started to get used to that terror happening and
started to fear it a little less. I used to hate it waking up in the
night like that, it was the worst experience of my life.

There are three important things to note here. Firstly, the alien
seemed to push the pencil into BOTH ears, so I'm not too sure why that
is, maybe to get at something from both sides, or to make two implants
or something. Maybe implant from one side and activate it from
another? Anyway, secondly, at the moment just as I wake up from those
dreams/nightmares, I have this horrible `shudder' feeling, full body,
and it feels like my consciousness is coming back into the body or
something, like a reconnection with the physical. I think thats quite
important, because it demonstrates not only the intensity of the thing
trying to be perceived (and hense the rushing of consciousness upon an
abrupt waking up), and demonstrates (through recall of perceived
feeling) that there was an astral projection/OOBE situation at work
during the abduction, which possibly was being replicated by the
attempted recall of the obviously traumatic situation. Thirdly, during
the terror feeling I also have a feeling of presence, which is the
feeling you get when they tap into your consciousness, and that
feeling of presence really did not help matters, for it made me even
more scared. When I'd gathered myself enough to go back to sleep, I
did so for want of getting away from the presence feeling, and away
from the gap behind the door. Actually, now that I've said that, I've
just remembered a memory I have of that time in my life. Its a memory
which is showing that I woke up with that exact same thing happening
maybe 20 to 30 times, and its also showing me that when I tried to get
to sleep, I was really scared that I'd wake up AGAIN in the same night
and have the same feeling. I really wasnt too sure of the dream having
anything to do with it at the time, but it obviously did. I remember
that I'd almost fear going to sleep in case it happened again that
night, and I think a few times it DID happen more than once in a
night. There was also another dream which I think was the main cause
of most of those situations, and it was one where a creature with
large dark eyes bounded (floated) down the stairs towards me,
terrifying me. I couldn't scream, the words just wouldn't come out. I
was really scared in the dream, and it usually resulted in my waking
into the terror situation. Perhaps some of the `presence' feelings in
the reoccuring dreams are a remoddelling of how it felt the first
time, modelled by my consciousness. Still, those two dreams were the
main cause of all the fright. Now that I'm thinking back to that time
in my life, I am really feeling quite sorry for myself, having to go
through all that, and, well, its the first time since the new year
that I feel like almost crying about it.

Allow me a moment to compose myself...



(Edited note: When writing this message originally, I did feel pretty
sad about things, but on reading back through again now its not so
bad, so don't worry - Paul)

. Right. Okay. Lets get on with it. So I think I've sort
of demonstrated the main incidents which I've perceived which are
related to abductions happening to me. However, there is one incident
I need to also get down on writing again, and thats what happened more
recently, back in March 1995. I'd been having an OOBE attempt one
night, in the early hours, and didn't succeed. However, as always, I
was very relaxed and mellow and only wanted to go to sleep after it.
That was about 2am. At 4:30, something happened. I was concious, and
in blackness. It was not in my room, and my consciousness was also NOT
in my physical, it really didn't feel that way. Then to my right two
pale thin arms outstretched and quickly grabbed me from the side, and
I /think/ carried me. I felt a rushing feeling like I was travelling
sideways accross 20 metres in a split second, and then I had that re-
entry feeling. I had actually forgotten ALL about that feeling until
that happened. I had the feeling, and then I was awake. I was also in
a state where I was _completely_ filled with terror. I couldnt think,
I was just observing myself NOT thinking. I was really scared
shitless. That kind of terror doesnt come from getting chased by
someone with a knife! No, this has got to be THE most intense feeling
of terror that I think it even possible for a human to feel. I simply
knew that nobody could help me. I had a vague knowlege of my parents
being in bed asleep, not being able to help me, and I as all alone in
my bedroom, under the covers (head showing), in a state of extreme
fright. However, that wasn't the worst of it. All along there was the
most intense feeling of presence I've ever felt. I am pretty sure that
a grey was either physically nearby or whatever, but was tapping into
my consciousness. I really felt its presence VERY intensely, and it
felt like an extreme monitoring, and powerful concentration on me.
After about 30 seconds I was brave enough to quickly reach my hand out
and grab a drink of water, as my mouth was so dry. The way I did that
was rather strange because I almost spilled it, not wanting to show
more of myself than I had to. Anyway, then I still felt that feeling
of presence. I think somewher along the line I looked at the clock
because I remember it being 4:30am. ALL I wanted was for that feeling
of presence to go away and for me to go to sleep. That is ALL I wanted
to happen. I was just sort of thinking "go away" etc, but it wouldn't.
It was very very strong indeed, and very much observing me. After a
short while the feeling of presence seemed to shift to being outside
the bedroom window, yet it was still just as intense (telepathic link
still). I turned over and tried to sleep. I think it must have taken
me about no longer than 45 seconds to get to sleep, so the alien
probably helped me with that. Next morning I awoke remembering it ALL.
I also then remembered that re-entry feeling and remembered it had
happened as a kid. That was important for me to know, because it was
pretty much proof that the same thing had happened as a kid. I had
actually not remembered it being that intense as a kid, but I suppose
it was.

Although that was pretty scary, it was also a very important thing to
happen. I'm pretty sure, due to my physical body still being in the
bed, that that abduction was one of informative purpose. It was also
the only abduction that I know of happening since my childhood, since
about 8-10 years of age. However, there was one other time BEFORE that
happened. I woke up one night in the middle of the night, and felt
scared instantly. It was not as intense, but I was just scared for
some reason. I had this very mild feeling that I was being watched.
I'd rolled over to face the wall at that time actually, and had this
feeling that there was /something/ `behind' me. I went back to sleep
pretty quickly. I think that was a sort of `monitoring' situation,
coming as a prelude, to check on my progress better. Maybe a sign, a
sign which I didn't interpret right, and hense they had to go the
whole hog. I dont think they actually /wanted/ to have to do that, but
I made it necessary. Thats why the terror thing happened - a real
abduction. From that day forth, once I'd regained my ease of going to
bed again (which took a few days), and once I'd overcome somewhat the
fear of it happening any following night, things started to change.
All of a sudden I started to realise a whole lot of stuff. I realised
that all the months of paranoia I'd been through wondering if I had
been abducted was just that - paranoia. However it had a foundation on
purpose. I believe that throughout those months, from October 94 until
March 95, the aliens had been interacting with me on an almost day-to-
day basis in order to get me to realise what had really been going on.
Unfortunately it took me a long time to realise it, and although their
guidance was helping me learn and expand my interests to a GREAT
degree, I was also thinking that that meant I was being abducted on an
almost nightly basis, and that was not very useful. I got so into the
situation of wondering yes or no if I was being abducted that at one
point I questioned my sanity. Then, things climaxed in the abduction
sometime in March. I think they NEEDED to do that abduction because I
wasnt getting much closer to realising what was going on, and if
anything was really doing myself in quite a lot. Since that happened,
things have completely turned around. I've finally worked out graually
what has been going on and why. Actually, a LOT of answers to some
still unanswered questions have been answered in these messages in the
past few days, especially today. I would NOT be surprised if they were
actually having a hand in this rapid `awakening' and learning process
I'm in right now. With every message I write I'm teaching myself
things, and I'm writing long messages so frequently now, and each one
is revealing secrets and piecing together the puzzle. NOW I can be
pretty sure what was going on during my abduction. They were actually
trying to get me to wake up, but I was so blind for quite a while that
I thought it meant I was being regularly abducted and guided. I WAS
being regularly guided, and I still am quite highly guided in what I
do and what I write. In fact, I will even say that I now think a lot
of the revelations I'm having this week are the result of their
interaction, I'm very sure of that now, and it is also very nice to
finally work out what the heck was going on. I had REASON to get
paranoid, and it really helps to know that.

Throughout my period of paranoia, Oct-March, there were a lot of
things happening to me which I could not readily explain. Information
was being given to me almost on demand, and I was also being taken TO
a lot of information, and every bit of it has been necessary. I did a
lot of situations of writing messages about things I didnt really know
much about. I was also being quite regularly diverted of sexual acts
at night and `made' to read an important book or something. It got
annoying after a while. That was going on during the reading and
gaining of the first books I read about abductions, and also the book
that I mysteriously obtained about Krishna Consciousness (which had a
lot of answers in that I needed). I particularly feel a certain
guidance when I travel to the library. After a while, I got really
pretty fed up with the way that I seemed to be diverted from doing
what I wanted to do at night, and it was getting so uncany the way I
kept ending up reading instead, when I'd been so intent on `doing it'.
I have to state that that very same phenomenon has been happening
AGAIN in the past two weeks. I have not done a sexual act, despite
serious desires to, for at least two weeks now. I keep wanting to, and
every time I end up writing or reading something which is very
important in my learning process. So you could indeed say that they
are sort of interacting with me right now, guiding me, getting me to
stop being distracted and focus on uncovering the truth. They've done
a splendid job though, and thats why I've got so far in working out a
lot of explanations for things, understanding fully the things I wasnt
even interested in before, to an extent even greater than those who
have been interested in it for years. I feel almost privileged in fact
to be being used as a tool in this way, very much so indeed. I feel
that I am actually cooperating with them, and that really helps. I
have not been hypnotically regressed as of this date, and I dont
really see that its all that necessary to do so. I've obviously gotten
to the stage where I'm being of tremendous use in their agenda of
awakening, and feel quite proud to be a part of it. I suggest that the
reason they stop you from recalling memories (or work in a way which
prevents it) is so that you dont find you, you're not SUPPOSED to
uncover the things they do to you until you are ready for it, or you
will get the wrong conclusions and wont learn from it, which is sadly
what so many have done.

As to the implant, well, in the knowlege that I have now, it seems
clear that they mean me no harm, and fruitfulness, love, and
understanding, if anything. So I don't think the implant is for the
sakes of some kind of secret army or something. Its probably a device
which interfaces better with the physical brain, allowing telepathic
(and hense all accompanying phenomena) links to be easier. Its also
probably for some kind of location finding as well. To say its going
to ship us off to another world doesn't seem too logical. Their work
is here on earth right now, so to ship abductees off to another place
would disallow us (at least those of us who have arrived at the
DESIRED effect) to spread the word, to spread truth and understanding
which will dramatically help people wake up and understand too.

Okay. What I think I need to do next it talk about the staging which
goes on in abductions. Generally, the abductee will be put into a
situation which is in some way very pleasant or very difficult for the
abductee. Then after a short while the scenery will merge back into
what it /really/ is. Notice that its because you start concentrating
on the staging situation and hense they sort of allow consciousness to
fall back into perception, hense unveiling the hallucination which
they have brought about higher up. For example, a female abductee was
put into a situation where there was a couch and table and so forth,
and she was wearing nothing, and a very attractive handsom man would
walk in. She feels extremely attracted to the man and they mutually
desire to have sex. They do, and then the illusion fails and the
abductee realises that she is really having sex with an alien. There
are also other situations which dont involve sex, in which the aliens
are intently monitoring your actions, seemingly analysing your
performance. Thats a very important thing to consider. They do the
sexual staging for purposes of easing the difficulties brought to
emotional abductees, but I'll go into the reproductive element later
on. The rest of the staging seems clearly for examinational purposes.
We already know that they stare and watch a lot, and that they get `in
your head' a lot also. They do that in abductions, and sometimes even
stand and simply watch visually. They are doing this for a reason.
They are monitoring your emotional situation and mental situation,
checking you out. There is a reason for it. They need to assess how
you will perform in various situations so that they gain a better idea
of how you are progressing as a `client' of theirs. This all ties in
with the ultimate goal, and because of that they need to keep
monitoring you to check your emotional status and so forth. They don't
feed off your emotions like people suggest. However, they are able to
tap into your consciousness and feel what you are feeling. So maybe
thats also important for them. I wouldn't have thought they'd do those
things simply for their self-minded pleasure. They must need to
experience your emotion with you as a process of better understanding
you as a being. It may be unpleasant for you, but you cant expect life
to be all roses, troubles lead to conquering and revelations.

This brings me onto the extremes of emotion which they cause you to
experience. On the one hand, they can cause you to experience immense
pain. I don't know how common that is in abductions, but I dont think
its common to all, which implies that some are a little less
understanding than others (simple personality differences and stuff).
However, they need you to experience extremes of pain because its hard
for them to understand how you feel emotions. They arent AS emotional,
their ability to feel pain is actually not that high, because they
have filtered such things out of their life. They can still feel
genuine love emotions, such as loneliness and so forth, but physical
pain is something which they have perhaps detatched from. They tap
into your consciousness while inducing it, and try to feel it WITH
you, but their ability to do that is limited, and hense they have to
take you to extremes before they feel enough to cope with. Remember
that they are advanced beings, and probably have a much higher
threshhold for such things, which they may have difficulty realising.
So I think you should dispell talk of them doing it to hurt you
deliberately, they are not. They are doing it because they cant feel
the range of emotion themselves and so the only way they can work out
how it affects us is to enduce it in us. You should realise though
that such emotions are kind of `relative' rather than absolute, and
you can get over it. Those who have a harder time accepting the
motives of the abductors are those who do not realise their importance
in being abducted in the first place, which I will come to shortly. On
the other end of the scale, abductees can be made to feel love. I
would assume it to be genuine love BY the aliens, but love that you
feel back might be induced to help you cope. Again, they are
compassionate to you generally, but when you dont understand what
they're doing and why they can quite understandably get rather annoyed
with you at times and hense be less polite. They are doing this whole
abduction thing FOR humanity, and thus it mystifies them when abuctees
act so wildly. I dont know if pain is a drug for them, maybe it is,
its such an intense feeling that maybe it is a drug, but the certainty
of the love is that its genuine and they DO feel it for all their
abductees.

Right, now lets talk about the reproduction. You should remember this
simple important explanation for abductions:

Its all to do with creation, in that process pain is just as necessary
as love.

Also, I believe that in some way the grey either manipulated or
created the physical human shell. Now think about this carefully. If
they created the shell, they must be doing it for a reason. Spiritual
human beings needed something all-encompassing and highly flexible
with which to incarnate here, and hense they needed a human body. So
somewhere along evolution, the grey intervened, maybe even with aid
from other races, and created the physical human body. So that is
pretty indicative of the fact that they were doing this in COOPERATION
with higher spiritual entities (humans).

Secondly, you MUST realise that the aim of each body within each plane
is to perceive that plane, while at the same time evolving that body
so that it can someday be able to incarnate into a lower plane. You
have to keep that in mind. The whole of our life in the physical is
not simply geared towards letting god see himself, it is much more
importantly geared towards reconnecting god with himself in the final
stage of creation, in the lower plane, and to do that you have to get
the physical aspect of the being into a suitable state where that can
become possible. You simply can't create a body and do that, it has to
evolve, the body has to evolve WITH the spiritual being inside it to
become more a part of the spiritual being. We already know that
getting a new physical brain when you incarnate doesnt help matters,
and that HAS been used to good effect. Through the ages of humanity
here on earth, aliens have PURPOSEFULLY manipulated the human species.
It might have had a hand in creating Jesus, and I most definately feel
that they had a strong hand in getting Jesus to be accepted for the
purpose of implementing religeon. Thus they helped Jesus to seem
miraculous by performing things from the `heavens', and by invoking
visions and miracles and voices from above. It was NECESSARY in order
to implement religeon. Religeon WAS (past tense) needed to allow god
to have some further perception of the plane. You didn't want to
simply throw humans down into the next plane, you wanted to have some
experience first. You wanted to have an element of living in this
plane before you move onto the next plane. So thats effectively whats
been happening in the history of mankind. It has all been a long
process of guiding humans forwards to the day when they can become
ready to move into the lowest plane. You cant simply just do that, and
thats why we had to go through the whole process of history first.
Through all the battles, the conflicts, the colonisation, the occult
activities, the paranormal, it was all necessary to evolve humanity.
As much as it all hurt, it was worth it for the experience. Remember
we are spiritual beings who have come from a higher place, a place of
much greater age, and thus incarnation here is something of a holiday.
The grey haven't ALLOWED humanity to wake up prematurely, because
there were things which needed sorting out first. Einstein needed to
sort out some important science, as did other scientists. Science had
to evolve, and following of fake religeons had to evolve also. It was
all a really massive control process, but it HAD to be done. It will
make it easier on you to understand this and not say "so the aliens
made us have wars and kill each other" if you will take on board the
fact that you have come here from a higher place. All those things
were unfortunately NECESSARY. But in the end you get the ultimate
prize, and it IS worth it, it IS worth surviving through all those
tragedies as its going to lead eventually to something very wonderful,
a really BIG prize for all of us.

The difficulty which has been propogated is that humans, up until now,
despite the occasional prod in science, medicine, religeon, and so
forth, have been in a very long period of being ignorant of our real
origin and purpose. The grey have MADE that happen by helping to
introduce a lot of false aspects to life. This has caused us to become
dependant on our physical life, on our physical body and appearance,
on our place in society here, and that has gone on for a long time.
They have been waiting all that time, working out what we NEED to do
next in order to take us one step closer to the goal. The goal is to
wake humans up to who they are, and allow them the chance of
incarnation into the lower plane. I know some of you might be finding
it difficult to hold much affection for the aliens knowing that they
have allowed all manner of difficulties to happen, but in many cases
they have HAD to allow them to happen or we wouldn't learn from our
mistakes. I was talking about this kind of thing to someone before,
and they said I was a `sadist' for suggesting that some bad things are
NECESSARY in order to arrive at good things. I'm afraid its true, they
ARE necessary. We have grown into a being which does not much like all
the killing and so forth, but if you'll notice, a few centuries back
people were still happy conquering and slaughtering each other. Its
because we've learnt from our mistakes that we now feel saddened by
the great wars.

Now, I'll quickly go back to the situation of reproduction and fetus
handling. If you have a race of beings who originate from just a few,
or even as little as two (as the bible suggests - adam and eve), then
the only way that those beings can continue to survive is to breed
with each other. It is effectively breeding WITHIN the family. Sons
would have to copulate with their sisters and so forth. At select
stages in the beginnings of things, I think the aliens took small
groups of humans to other lands here on earth, and thus helped
humanity to spread accross the globe. There is mention of such
activities throughout the bible. However, we still originated at the
same few basic beings. Not wanting to bring about a removal of
diversity and individualism, and to use individualism as a tool for
further development, they created humans which could not only look
different, but have different bodily shapes/sizes, abilities, likes
and dislikes, etc.. Still, the human species has been breeding within
itself for a long time now. NOW you are starting to see an increase in
diversity. Alternative sexualities, radicals, outcasts, rich and poor
divisions, classes, racism etc.. we are so diverse now as a race that
there's not a whole lot further we can go without starting to get into
some problems. Also, you have to take the greys situation. They all
appear very similar in apparance. That is either because they have
filtered out individual appearances, or (more likely) because they
have replaced their reproduction system with that of cloning. Cloning
itself is a process of inbreeding, effectively, and that too is
causing a `weakening' of their species. So we've got two species which
are headed for evolutional disaster at some point in the future. So,
the logical solution is to cross breed the two species. It injects new
genes into both species, which will help to accelerate the
efficiencies both species have, as well as help to remove
(genetically) the impurities and defects of both species (although the
grey dont have many defects). This also allows a hybrid being to form,
which can be shared between the two races. Some are here on earth,
others are back at their world. They will continue to in-breed with
each race, and hense spread the seed of vitality into both races
again. Actually, if you think about it, it would seem that this in-
breeding is actually a kind of payment for the greys. They've made
this species, but they also NEED this species in order to survive. I
expect they knew that when they started.

So how are they doing this? There are a selection of methods being
used. Mainly though, the resulting beings are artificially incubated
and reared by the greys. The basic methods for copulation are
difficult to swallow for those involved, which is again an attitude
which has been necessary to develop. The methods are as follows. First
of all, there is the basic sexual act. This more often happens to male
abductees. They will be laying on the `operating table', an erection
will be induced, and a female grey will `join' with the man, hense
producing a fetus within her at some later date. Another method is to
actually get abductees to have sex with each other, which usually will
happen in a kind of mental stupour of at least one of the
participants. Then you've got the extraction of sperm and eggs method.
They extract sperm form the man, either by inducing an orgasm, or by
simply removing it with more surgical means. Also, male grey can
copulate directly with female abductees. Generally though, most grey
dont have reproductive organs, and direct copulation is therefore not
frequently used. They DO however have specially bred grey who DO have
genetalia, and hense perform the sexual act and maybe production of
child. Another method is to take the sperm from the male (human or
otherwise) and inject it into the egg(s) of a female human or alien.
That does not apply in an alien-alien situation of course, and also
note that the main reason for it is to produce a CROSS breed, so
copulation between two human abductees is not going to be all that
productive. Usually, they will use hallucination-type imagery to make
it /seem/ like one of the people involved is human, but they are
probably almost always alien in reality. There are maybe a few other
methods, but those are the main ones.

Then they take the early fetus from the mother. It can be alien or
human, and also realise that they have hybrids which work with the
greys for the purpose of copulation also - so that it /seems/ to be
between two humans. Then they start to `rear' the fetus into a being,
a cross breed between our two species. Then comes the next stage of
abductions, the viewing and holding of the babies. The aliens will
present a mother or father with their `children' (for thats
effectively what they are). They will watch while you do this, again
as a monitoring process. They are cross breeding our two species so
they want to get a VERY good idea of what we are like as a species,
and hense all the monitoring, looking, staring, telepathic links, and
pain inducement. They need to know what sort of a being it is they're
breeding with. They will usually ask the abductee to hold and love the
baby. They generally do that, with varying degrees of will. I /think/
that maybe the babies need some sort of interaction with humans. They
are in an alien environment with people not totally of their own kind,
and so they need to feel love from the human. Human love is quite
powerful, and they can induce it in you if necessary. I think love is
also a thing which is sort of telepathically transmitted (which is why
loving couples are most likely to strike up telepathic abilities
between them). Love is powerful, and they need you to give some love
to the baby, or it may not evolve properly and may not grow into a
proper balanced individual. Also, as many babies are to eventually be
implemented into human society, they need the child to get a rough
idea of the beings they will be living with, so that it will feel a
little more homely. Needless to say, those cross-breed who ARE living
here on earth in amongst us, who are probably rather numerous,
generally feel a sense of not belonging here, and a sort of wanting to
go `home'. Thats only natural I suppose, but is eased somewhat by the
initial interaction with their human parents.

So, do you see now that the reproduction process, the staging process,
etc.. are all necessary to the furtherment of creation? Thats what all
this is about: Creation. They've created humans. Humans are now
integrating into their race through cross-breeding which will
strengthen both species, and when cross-breed here on earth breed with
further humans, so you get the `generations' of cross-breed, and also
you get a spreading of the new vitality and change. Also, the cross
breeding will bring about a solid foundation for a link between our
two species, a bond, a connection, and when humanity wakes up to what
I'm saying here, it will realise that that too is going to form a good
foundation for relations with the grey in the coming years ahead.
/Hopefully/ you can see that *I* am an abductee and I should know as
well as anyone the _apparent_ difficulties and harshness which the
grey /appear/ to show, and as I'm telling you that I now know WHY it
appears that way, I hope you will therefore realise that if I, an
abductee, can come to this conclusion and deal with it and accept it,
there's no reason why you shouldn't too. You will NOT be able to
escape the process of creation. You are part of their process, as well
as part of the process of the ultimate creation - gods creation. We've
HAD our time of perceiving this world, now its time to start waking up
and start proceeding with the more important agenda.

We can still set about perceiving this world while we're waking up,
but we MUST wake up. Abductees all around the world are going to
/hopefully/ be dramatically helped by knowing what I've said about
abductions, their reasoning. Hopefully they will start to see that
they are like an `elite' group of humans who have been given the GIFT
of taking a much more important role in the waking up process.
Apparently, the so called `second coming' started somewhere about
1914, and since that time things have gone drastically downhill, it
would /seem/. We've had a world war. That wasnt enough to wake us up.
So we had to have another one, even more devastating. That /still/
didn't wake us up but it seemed to rattle us a lot more. It has
stirred a lot of emotion in people all over the globe, so that IS a
positive effect. Its in realising how awful things were that people
are growing from that experience. It WAS necessary. Its hard to accept
that such things HAVE to happen, because we've grown so accustomed to
being ONLY physical beings, so accustomed to be individuals and trying
to reinforce our invidisualism (which has created many strong ego's
amongst people), that I KNOW its hard to accept that it was all
needed. But it was. Sadly, but thats the way creation works. You don't
get anywhere if life is all roses. You have to have difficulties and
troubles. The usage of the occult has been just as much a social
former as religeon has, and you will see that religeon is already
starting to rapidly lose its appeal. A lot more people are starting to
become athiest because of it, because they dont know the truth about
god. I DO, and thats what I've been saying here.

Now, I'd like you to consider this important point: Abductions also
started at the so called `second coming', pretty much at the turn of
the century. Since that time, they have increased a great deal, even
with mass abductions taking place. Oh, btw, when you get scars and
stuff in abductions, they really dont intend you harm by what they do,
yet its your attatchment to being your own egotistical person that it
affects you so much. Back to my point... a LOT of people have been
abducted, genuinly. All of those abductees have experienced a great
deal of anxiety and stress because of it, fatally in some cases. I've
been through a lot myself, but I've gotten through it. For /some/
reason, I am starting to answer a question which I kept asking myself
over and over again throughout my life. I kept thinking "I feel I've
got more to do". Thats had a big affect on me, and has caused me to
follow my own goal, and not go with what society tells me. NOW, now I
can see WHAT it is thats so special for me to do. As far as I know, I
am the ONLY abductee known that actually has worked out or has been
guided towards this knowlege and understanding of abductions. Still to
this day people are struggled to explain abductions, and hense are
also struggling to come to terms with it on social and personal
levels. I find it makes me feel greatly special to seem to be the
person which is going to turn the tide. HERE I have told you THE
reason for abductions, the real reason. When all the other abductees
discover or are informed of (by me or by others) what this whole thing
is about, I hope it is going to help them greatly. They are going to
become special and they are going to become leaders and helers and so
forth, helping the REST of humanity into the final stages of our
purpose, the purpose of creation. It seems fairly clear to me that
right now, the grey have taken the whole abduction situation far
enough, and allowed the confusion to propogate KNOWINGLY long enough,
that they are now going to help us reap the rewards, but getting
people like ME to start realising and presenting the truth. I would
feel amazingly priveleged if I am the /only/ abductee that is going to
come to this conclusion, and I seriously hope that other abductees are
also going to be helped in arriving at such a conclusion. I know I am
a logical thinker, and that I think with pictures quite a lot, and
that I have fairly well evolved consciousness and hense related
abilities, so I guess it would see I'm a kind of logical choice to be
the one thats able to discover the truth. But I really do hope there
are others, It would help. When the other abductees finally know the
truth they are going to become USEFUL, they are going to start
spreading the truth also, and in the meanwhile regaining their sanity
and integrity and place in the scheme of things. Yes siree, I may well
have the power to help change the world! 

Right, its getting pretty late now tonight. I've still got some other
stuff to talk about yet, generally non-abduction stuff which needs
tidying up and explaining, but I'll do that later in the afternoon
(later today after sleeping). Before I go, however, there is something
important which I MUST to say.

There is a great deal of confusion surrounding the whole alien
question at the moment. Whats the reason for abductions, what are
their motives, why do they do the things they do, etc.. there is also
therefore been a LOT of _incorect_ things said about this whole alien
question. What with talk of draco coming to eat us, you have to wonder
where that rumour came from. The greys do NOT need the draco or any
other species to control them because the grey are NOT trying to take
over and enslave us. Get that into your heads! They are doing things
FOR us, WITH us spiritual beings. They are spiritual beings too, and
the overal purpose of gods creation would mean that its illogical for
one species NOT to help out a less developed one. All spiritual races
NEED each other, so its only logical for them to HELP each other, not
to try and enslave each other. All that bullshit talk about being
enslaved, about being used for food, about having hordes of aliens in
underground bases, about having battles with aliens, about having
planetoids coming here to take over us, its all CRAP! See the truth, I
speak the truth! There is a seriously large amount of confusion
surrounding the whole of the alien question, and its merging with all
other areas. *IF* the greys decided to contact the US government then
I can ASSURE you that they would NOT be trying to go against humanity.
They would NOT be trying to enslave us. We are their creation, they
need us, we need them. We are working _together_ to further the
purpose of creation. If they contacted the government or some secret
government you can be pretty dam sure in knowing that the greys are
not going to suddenly turn around now and turn against humanity. No
siree. That would be TOTALLY illogical. Its almost something you could
laugh about even. Humanity was created by ONE set of grey, for the
reasons I've already outlined. They could not and would not allow
another species of grey to come in and ruin their creation, they
simply would NOT. Thats a ludicrous idea. And dont suggest that they
have space battles over whose agenda will be fulfilled. The original
grey have created us, they have manipulated our *PROGRESS*, they have
prepared us, there is absolutely no way that ANY other race is going
to interfere with us in that sort of way. We are furthering creation,
there CANNOT be any higher agenda than that, and lower agenda will not
get a look in. The greys simply are NOT acting against us. If indeed
the tales are true of an EBE and the Krill blokey being kept by the
government then its still totally illogical to think that the grey
would give them advanced technology unless that was for the
furtherment of their purpose - thus they'd have control of that
situation, and would more than likely inform such a government of that
purpose. They would also inform them, therefore, that the so called
`cover up' situation which they are so elegantly ACTING out, is
something which is ALSO necessary in order to make the awakening all
the more important and accepted. People have grown tired and they've
developed desregard for these cover-up mongers, and that is going to
HELP humanity in its waking up. That will be used positively. The grey
would not allow such a government to actually destroy their creation
by implementing a world-order thingy where we are all slaves. Thats
totally illogical. And the grey would NOT take a part in that attempt
either if it was not part of their plan/method.

All this talk of mind control and stuff, of `bad' greys trying to
enslave humanity is really pretty garbage. If you cant see that, then
WAKE UP! They are ACTING. They are actually persuing the act of making
it look like there is a cover up. They probably (if `they' exist at
all) will even have devised such a plan WITH the grey so to further
the process eventually. All the so called `leaks' are PLANNED. All the
so called `secrets' are being held behind a veil of an ACT. However, I
would like to state this: I have provided a good logical explanation
for the alien question here. It is, however, evident that human
mutilations have occurred, as have cattle mutilations. I do NOT think
they were really done by the grey, otherwise what the hell did the
grey feed on before now? Its illogical. No, I think that there /might/
be some kind of secret government type thing which IS doing some mind
control and stuff, testing out their experiments on people. I suggest
that all mention of the draco in abductions is an indicator to a FALSE
abduction. They have seized the abduction process in an attempt to do
two things. a) To discredit the GOOD nature of abductions, and b) To
cover up for their crimes against humanity. It seems /someone/ has
taken abductions and tried to replicate them, yet haven't done so too
well. They've missed bits out of the script, they've started to
implement new and WILD additions to the script (such as the draco
raping abductees). They've tried to get away with using the confusion
as a cover for what they're up to, and its got to stop and it WILL
stop. I would also like to say, for any government type folkies
reading this, that I do no longer fear death, and if I am killed for
saying what I'm saying, I WILL be back, and others WILL awaken. I'll
make sure of it. The secret government will NOT be able to halt the
process of creation, they will NOT be able to implement the world-
order thingy if we work quickly enough in waking people up to whats
going on. Its plain to see that the draco are INVENTIONS of those who
are copying the abduction thing. Its plain to see that they must be
using hypnosis and mind control and brain-control and manipulation
techniques to try and simulate abductions using technology. They are
phoney. The grey are GOOD. They are the good guys, and they KNOW that
the truth is going to get out like it is here. They know that those
greusome folk who see fit to cover their sexual perversions with the
face of a reptile will NOT withstand the awakening. IF a world order
does get put into place, it will NOT last. It simply will not, and
they will NOT have the greys help in achieving it unless that will
result in a benefit to the purpose. I cannot see that ANY grey would
have any WRONG involvement with anyone, its just not logical. Each and
every one of the grey are committed to this process. They would NOT
have created humanity in the first place if they weren't totally
willing to see it through to the awakening. That awakening starts
here. It starts with the truth. If the grey did NOT want me to tell
you this information they could EASILY stop me in many ways. They
haven't, and in fact have helped me to bring it out.

The whole situation of confusion has brought about so many garbage
theories, so much stuff about the grey involvement in something bad,
that it makes me want to puke. The grey are NOT involved in anything
detrimental to the purpose of creation. This also included NOT being
involved in the obvious FAKE attempt at duplicating and propogating a
cover for some sinister wrongdoings. I suspect there are even some
people in government and so forth who KNOW the true nature of the
greys, and they are HELPING this confusion along somewhat, KNOWING
that it will be helpful in the end. People are going to be so relieved
to know the truth now because of all the confusion they've had to go
through. Again, you HAVE to go through rough patches to arrive as a
better species.

I think thats about all I can say about abductions at the moment. I
seriously need to get to sleep now, its daylight outside! I hope you
will see the wisdom and TRUTH in my words, and I hope that you can
therefore now set about doing YOUR part in the uncovering of the
truth. I cannot do it all on my own, no way. I need help, and I need
you all to TAKE the truth and use it. Use it to prove that there is
some kind of faking going on, and use it to prove and disprove all the
cock-and-bull theories which are circulating. Use it for yourself and
your friends, use it for HUMANITY!

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I realise there are a few other aspects to abductions which also need
explaining, but I think you get the general idea now.
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