From: "Robert Fullmer" 
Subject: The Implant In Me
Message-ID: <9510098159.AA815948123@cc.chiron.com>
Date: Thu, 09 Nov 95 11:48:52 PST

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Behold Jaska!!

JV> Hi !

Hi Jaska!!

 JV> I was really moved by your experience and a few questions
 JV> occurred to me. I hope I'm not intruding or anything, but I'm so
 JV> curious since all this is so new to me.

Jaska, never worry about being intrusive.  If I feel like it's too
much, I'll let you know but (as a friend of mine is teaching me) I am
very interested in sharing the experience with others so that the
information is out there.  The more information everyone has, the
closer we can get to knowing the truth.

I also need to say that large sections of my experiences are blocked
from my conscious memory.  What I do have recall of are small sections
of time (2 or 3 minute "clips") from each encounter, memories of very
brief instants (like still photos), vague feelings, or knowledge that
I didn't previously have.  Does that make sense?

 JV> Have you been having many encounters with these 'greys' ?

Actually, my experiences with the greys are cyclical.  From October
through April, my experiences happen more frequently.  May through
September they seem to slack off a bit.  In this last cycle, my
experiences stopped altogether between May and September.  My
experiences with the greys go back many years (from what I recall) and
I suspect that they go all the way back to early childhood (7 or 8).

 JV> Are they always the same 'grays ?

From what I can recall, they are always the same beings.  I always
remember the female being present durng my abductions and know that
she is the same person I encounter each time.  The others who
accompany her are familiar but my interactions with them are minimal
and I don't *think* I have ever had any communication with them
despite their presence.  All communication happens with the lead
female telepathically (it is like hearing a voice in your head just
behind your forehead).

 JV> Do you know why they contact specially you ?
             No, I don't *know* why they contact me.  There is
much theory about this and I don't know that I have ever been told the
reasons behind abducting me specifically.  I want to be very clear
that hundreds, possibly thousands of people, are having these
experiences so I don't view it as something that is happening to *ME*
specifically.  I also have reason to believe that this is something
that has been happening in my family for generations (at least mine,
my mothers', and my grandmothers').  Within the framework of ufology,
there is a theory that abductees/experiencers agreed to participate in
these experiences prior to incarnation in this lifetime.  The first
time I heard this, I thought the person telling me this was off their
rocker.  "Why would anyone agree to participate in this intrusion
(both in their personal lives as well as physically)," I thought.  The
more I deal with my experiences, the more I come to believe this is
true.  I have never really felt like I was from this planet; I always
felt like I didn't "belong here."  If it is true that I lived a
previous life on another planet (Zeta Reticuli?) and agreed to
incarnate here to further whatever research, that would make perfect
sense.  BUT...I don't know that any of that is true and I don't know
why they visit me.

 JV> Are they giving you any information or are they just operating
 JV> you?

I'm being given information as well although I don't understand it
much.  I assume that (***IF*** a mass landing ever occurrs [and I'm
not sure that I believe such an event will ever take place]) I am
being trined for a specific task/job.  Due to my lack of education (I
only have a high school diploma), I have not taken much action on this
training/information but that is changing.  I am currently working on
(2) small projects that are related to the information that I have
been given.  I am also planning on going back to school (college) this
spring so that I don't feel like I am approaching this subject with no
preparatory knowledge.

 JV> What do they look like (more spesific description that you gave)?

I have tried to put my finger on this and it is difficult to explain
in words.  Have you seen the picture on the cover of Whitley
Streiber's book, "Communion"? That's close but not it - the face is
too boney, too angular, and the eyes are too slanted.  Have you seen
the picture on the cover of Ed & Francis Walter's book, "UFO
Abductions in Gulf Breeze"?  That, too, is close but not quite right -
the shape of the head is close, very close, but they eyes are too
round.  Their skin is a light grey/white-ish color (the only other
place I think Ihave seen this colorThe female leads facial features
are similar to the others but she stands about 6-8" (approx. 15-20
cm.) taller than her companions.  She wears a...I don't know what you
would call it, it's like a robe, a loosely fitting garment that slips
over the head (v-neck cut) and arms - NO hood.  (I have heard of
people reporting hoods but she doesn't have one.)  It's made of a
light-colored (egg shell white?, off-white?, beige?) material that
looks like it is fairly lightweight but not see through.  I know this
isn't too clear but I can't quite give a perfect description of the
fabric.  The smaller guys are wearing tight-fitting garments (with a
crew cut-type neckline and probably 3" [approx. 7 cm.] of excess
fabric around the arms) which I would describe as similar to
coveralls.  I don't see any seams, zippers, or anything so I'm not
sure how they get into them.

 JV> There's just a few questions, but I'm sure more will come. I
 JV> would be mostlythankful (I think all on this list would too) if
 JV> you could share your experiences with us.I hope you don't feel
 JV> offended of those questions.

I know that some of this didn't come across too clear (or at least I
didn't feel like it did).  If you have further questions, please feel
free to ask and I will do my best to make some sense of it before
relaying it back to you.

Hope all is well in Finland.
Best wishes,
Robert Fullmer

JV> Jaska Vetamajarvi, Oulu, Finland - javetama@oso1.oso.oamk.fi

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